Unfortunately I have no idea who they were and if they were from here :( But you'll probably right. Maybe I'll find something in April

I don't like crowds too. There was a huge crowd the time I went, but I kind of managed to see everything I wanted. Sometimes you just have to stop caring, just like others don't care :D I'm short so I've been standing on my toes a lot and I kind of squished myself in between people even if it seemed there's no space for one more person. Sometimes my elbows would work too, and sometimes a simple excuse me. If you want to go then go, don't let the anxiety stop you from doing things you want to do :) Maybe take someone with you? Ash was there with me, but he was his own man and he kept on telling me he's got an eye on me, but I think it was the other way around sometimes XD

Going early is a great idea! And with a personal bodyguard

Is it today already? Have fun!

I'm fine. Ash didn't go to therapy yet. And I don't think he will. I forgot all about it. Idk, we seem fine and I don't want to ruin it by reminding him that "hey, you were supposed to go to therapy because you're a weirdo, remember?" I think he might've forgotten or he's hoping I did. I'm trying to focus on just saving up for an apartment and keeping my job and working on my body shape. stuff like that.

I guess I'm weak for not reminding him, but I don't know how to start talking about without ruining his mood etc.
The other day facebook sent me an add of wedding rings in wood, and I know he likes the idea so I sent him the link to the website. But with that I felt I had to explain him that I'm not sending it because I was actively searching out wedding rings and that it wasn't like I'm pressuring him or anything. I felt very weak in that moment...

I can only hope he believes me XD

Lol, that's what I thought

I think so. Especially he's been having a difficult time at work (and he still does), working overtime a lot and then he does stuff on the weekends, and yesterday I dragged him to my dad because it was his b-day and Ash was kind of mad at me, although I told him that he doesn't have to go if he's going to be mad about it and he still went... stubborn goose. Then he couldn't watch the soccer game properly because his dad wanted something, the potato chips were not tasty and his soccer club lost the game and he was very upset about all this. And then this morning he hurt his hand while opening a jam jar and I'm like... why, universe? he don't deserve it DX
So yeah, I won't really bug him with the therapy for a while He just needs a vacation now. That he can't take