Yeah, but I love this one Maybe he's trying and I don't see it, seems it's also the other way around...
I just don't want him to go He's really a great guy, just insufferable in tiny little areas.

Nooo, Nikki, don't listen to your mom, just do what's good for your mental health! She probably really is worried but I don't think she understands your situation at all. As you said, in the long run, your health is more important than a couple more dollars. I think you should definitely take that leave and take care of yourself first.

I'm glad to hear they agreed and that you're taking this opportunity

Oh, I'm fine, just had a dream last night that Ash bought me a ring, but it was ugly and the stones were falling out and the glue was visible etc. And he was telling me something along the line of "I bought it, because I'm not as stupid to just leave you, but I'm not gonna overpay for some stupid ring". Which is totally not something he would say, but it's a dream so well. And I told him I'm happy he gave it to me, but I'd rather a prettier one, like this or that (and somehow we were suddenly in a store, lol and I was showing him ones I liked) and he said we can just exchange the if I want.
That's all. So I'm fine, just getting impatient XD My brain playing tricks on me and all. Midpoint of the month is coming soon and I can't wait to just ask him. He was looking at concerts and checked out a Valentine's Day concert of jazz music and I'm like... but you know we're kinda not okay, right? We might not be together by February 14th XD Of course I didn't tell him that, because that would make him feel like I'm pressuring him to hurry up and I didn't want to do that. It wouldn't do any good to my cause

Edit: now it occured to me that maybe he doesn't think about breaking up but more about moving out. Although I specifically told him to think about whether he wants to be with me or not.

This morning he told me he remembers what he's supposed to decide about, so at least I know he didn't forget I can't even remember how the conversation shifted to that

Man, I always stress about things, and this one is kinda important XD also me stressing about things is one of his problems with me so I'm like welp, not gonna stop so you better make up your mind

Exactly, we can't really help it. Ash doesn't seem to get it. Oh well.

Oh, I understand. Not too long ago I saw my mom's neighbour's grandson that I remember playing with when he was like 1 or 2 yrs old and now he's like even taller than my bf I think, so that was a shock XD
Also I remember bf's lil sis as a kid and now she's so much taller than me and all grown up :')