Just popping in to say I hope you guys have a beautiful day!

Alan and I are going to celebrate our 5th anniversary early since next weekend we'll be having the baby shower. It's almost here! She's almost here!

Be good and take care of yourselves.

@Lily: Have a wonderful day, too!

I'm taking care of myself today, I took a 1,5h nap with bf XD But I'll read that book, too... Just a little later

@Raine: That's good ^^

Well, maybe a therapist is an even better idea. That could be really helpful to start dealing with your anxieties and everything. I should start looking for some therapist, too tbh
Haha, understood XD But maybe try meeting them, just for laughs
Lol, that's what it's like with me and my bff. We just can't settle a date to meet, she's always somewhere, doing something and yeah

Drawing is therapy of sorts, isn't it? XD

I just hope she won't be working that day, cause she doesn't know yet and her boss is a prick
Yay, she's gone! What was up with her anyways? XD

*jealous* you can complain some to Kyle at least, I try to avoid complaining to Ash at all XD I mean, I'm really not hateful and I don't want to listen that I am. I just need to say some things which I can't say to the people who annoy me QuQ

That's great! I was about to ask you about them I'm slacking off with them bees, something's wrong with me lately DX

I know you don't. As do I. But maybe we both should take care of ourselves that way.
My stress and anxieties completely mess up my every day life, mainly my eating habits... I basically don't eat. Because I'm nauseaous in the morning, because there are people in the kitchen, because "I don't know" where the nearby shop is and I'm scared to go out alone because I'm scared I'll get lost or that something will happen to me, because we can't cook some food for the next day, because I won't cook with that man who only criticises everything we do, because I don't feel at home, because I don't feel safe, because I'm stressed out...
You see the streak of excuses? I make excuses not to eat. It's crazy. I'm even making excuses not to see the therapist.
Stop making whatever excuses you're making, Raine, go to a therapist, let someone help you
/end motivational rant
It's funny how we're always more concerned about other people's well-being than our own... Stupid empathy *kicks it*

Oh noes! I hope you can make it still

He apparently thinks otherwise, but I don't feel hatred at all, I'm just annoyed bu some minor stuff, and he doesn't seem to get it Makes me feel bad for being super slightly neurotic

Take it then?

That's good

Oh, wow, that's some intense shit you're having again
How did her genitals even fall out?! And personally, even if it's common and not as bad, it can turn bad if it will be neglected, so... *crosses fingers* go make that money DX
Maybe after some of these things are taken care of, you could try looking for a little less expensive therapist? I just found one today on Facebook, it's for students only (thank god for that stupid philosophy I failed, I still have my student ID valid XD) and it's cheaper than average therapy. And if you don't have any luck with cheaper therapies, does your social care include therapies? It's robably a long wait, but I think it's still worth it. Or maybe there are some council thingies online. I think I saw something like that a while ago. But it was in English and I got discouraged, thinking my English isn't good enough to explain myself *kicks self-esteem*

Boo, sorry Maybe someone would sell it and you could bargain with them or something. (Cause the market prices are crazy lately x.x;)

Same. Just today, I wasn't even complaining, I only said I noticed I'm more tired after work since we moved to the new office, and that I assume I get tired because of the amounts of people and noise suck life out of me (well now I'm complaining the way I wanted, I used different, softer wording). And Ash goes all "I have it worse at my work, I work in open space of 60 people, offices work like that, people work in offices like that somehow, you won't change it anyhow" and he was saying it in a tone sounding like "stop bitching about it, it's a normal workplace, some have it worse, and you're complaining again". But all I said was "I noticed I'm more tired after work since we moved to that new office. I think it may be because there are more people and it's louder". And I was really sleepy while saying it, so I didn't even put any emotion in that sentence, yet he goes nearly lashing out at me for even speaking. He told me he understands me and didn't mean to sound like that, but still, he sounded like he didn't understand at all. Makes me want to stop sharing my thoughts with him. Ugh.
/end rant
Aaaaah, feels so good -u-

I'm sure that's against the law tho! D:< They can't just not pay him for the job he has already done, they literally have to pay him for that!

You'll think about it later then, you have a lot on your plate right now

Yeah, his tone pissed me off, too. So I told him that and how it made me feel. He just raises his voice too much, even if he's not angry. He'll be explaining something trivial to you, like how a juice is made and he'll raise his voice on his first try. And if, god forbid, you misunderstand or don't catch something he said (cause he speaks fast as hell), he'll raise his voice even more, because he's getting annoyed that he can't explain something. He's a strange man at times, but I'd go to hell for him. Kinda why I actually made that appointment with a therapist. Though I think he should also see one