My ex started texting me, and I don't know what to do. No, I know what
I should do, and I know my partner would be upset with me... But
honestly... I can't help my curiousity, and I'm greedy and want kind words.
I feel gross for how I don't care who they're from, but when they come
from that person who I have so much history with... It feels like they're
real and I'm actually the good things they say about me...
And watching him gripe and grovel for my attention, getting so scared
that I'll stop talking to him... it makes me feel a little appeased for all
the pain he had put me through, like I'm getting revenge...
for all those times he made me grovel for his attention, for his word....
But I don't know.... would my partner be understanding of that? Or would
they think I'm something horrible and be paranoid about me being unfaithful?
I can be trusted to never cheat, but I worry they'll think that..