Haha, I am just very affraid I am just not ready enough..
I am doing IT because of a back up plan. Besides, I can give my self two years time to improve before attempting to go a school where they can teach me that. I really do hope I will get accepted soon!
And well.. Too much information makes my brain hurt. I do hope... everyone I have told my wish/dream to... meant it that I will be able to do it.. But I sometimes think they give me false hope..
Its the nearly the only thing that keeps me alive, if I lose it... I see no point to continue on. I have been fighting trough a lot of pain and my dream kept me alive. I'd love to tell, but not everyone needs to know this. Nor do I want to go into my past too much. Lets just say people wouldn't let me alone.
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This guy... is my freaking hero...