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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 19th, '17, 02:42    


Moi

Joined: Jun 17th, '08, 21:48
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Mood: Know you're not alone.
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I have times where I'm so content with my life.
But I instantly think that anything can go wrong at any second.
It makes it scary to enjoy happiness.

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A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me,
I can taste it in your tears."



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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 19th, '17, 03:18    


Fire

Joined: May 31st, '09, 14:54
Posts: 5532
Hugs: 107898
Mood: O-sakura in Osaka! <3 <3 <3
Location: Wherever the wind takes me...
I’m still mad at you for using all of my christmas money for drugs that I would never use, without even asking me. Now I feel guilty that you lost so much money, and that you don’t do drugs alone, so I do it with you. I don’t like what you picked up. At all.
I’m still mad at how you dealt with the Haley issue. And how you’re continuing to deal with it.
I hate how you’ve treated me these last few weeks. Like I’m your servant. How dare I not drop everything I am doing instantly to cater to your needs. Like I’m a nuisance. Like I’m a child. Like I can’t do anything right. Like I’m your inferior. Like I’m an imbecile. Like I’m ruining your life. You say you care about me, but your actions speak louder than your words.
I hate how you treated me in Mass.
I hate how you treated me in Moncofa.
I hate how you treated me in Madrid.
I hate how you teated me in Cat Ba.
I hate how you treated me in Hue, in Hoi An, in Da Lat, in Saigon.
I hate how you treated me in Sionukville. In Phenom Pehn. In Siem Reap.
I hate how you treated me in Bangkok.
I hate how you treated me in Mass.
I hate how you’ve been treating me since about a year into our relationship.
I’m sick of the mind games. I’m sick of the drama. I’m sick of the threats. I’m sick of the passive aggressive comments. I’m sick of dealing with your bullshit.
You aren’t the man I fell in love with anymore.
I’m done.
Give me back the money you owe me, and go cry to your new girl friend. I hope you don’t break her heart like you broke mine.


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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 19th, '17, 03:18    


Fire

Joined: May 31st, '09, 14:54
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Mood: O-sakura in Osaka! <3 <3 <3
Location: Wherever the wind takes me...
Today I start moving on.

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 19th, '17, 05:17    


lunar_eclipse66

Joined: Mar 18th, '11, 18:00
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Mood: I can hear the wires pullin'
when you and one of your best friends are going through a rough time and all you want to do is fly over and steal her and tell her everything will be okay, but you don't have enough money for a plane ticket and you have lost confidence in your own words.

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Real talk for a moment: Can we Go back to that month that Pokemon Go was released. Everyone was so happy and the only people down my throat were old men at work who complained about a cell phone app kids were playing. Can we have that? Please.
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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 19th, '17, 21:45    


jacobgrey

Joined: Jun 27th, '10, 20:26
Posts: 10677
Hugs: 149875
Mood: (◡‿◡)
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Location: England
All I needed you to do was fight for me. You can't even figure out how to do that. Pathetic.

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 21st, '17, 11:38    


ραριℓℓση ηιтєѕ

Joined: Feb 15th, '12, 04:32
Posts: 148
Hugs: 7192
Mood:
Spoiler
It's so so so so so difficult not to resort to self-harming again.
Like...there is NO positive outlet in my life.
Well, there's one...but I'm afraid of making him sick of my constant whining.
He probably already is.

I'm expected to shoulder everyone's burdens and be happy about it.
My mental illness isn't real...while my sister's is.
It's garbage. Absolute garbage.
My sister took all the symptoms she overheard me telling to my boyfriend...and claimed that she had them all and she was suffering.
Mom coddles the hell out of her...while I'm told to grow up...and sucked dry of my money.
I can't deal with this anymore.
Everyone expects so much of me...I'm doing my best.
But it's not good enough.


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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Feb 22nd, '17, 23:10    


Fire

Joined: May 31st, '09, 14:54
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Mood: O-sakura in Osaka! <3 <3 <3
Location: Wherever the wind takes me...
One of my best friends in the whole wide world is going through a rough patch right now, and I want nothing more than to fly out there, swoop her off her feet like the Queen she is, and carry her away to somewhere as beautiful as she is, so that she can forget all of this negativity for awhile. She just moved far away from her home state to start a new chapter in her life, and it's not turning out to be all she hoped it would be. And it kills me to see her so disapointed. She deserves to be surrounded by as much love and trust and respect and joy as she gives me every day she is in my life. And it seems like she is meeting opposition at every turn. She deserves the world. It kills me that I don't have the money to fly down there and whisk her away to somewhere better. And we're both super bad at communicating, so it's really hard to tell how bad things really are, and if she's really okay. I miss my bestie so much. I just want her back. I feel like we've really lost contact during uni. In high school, we used to talk every day, and text each other for hours every night. When we were in uni, I was lucky to see her once a semester. And now that we've both moved away, it's harder than every to keep in contact. I know our lives just got hectic, and we'll always be friends, but I miss my friend so much. She was my lifeline for so long. It's so weird to not have her in my life anymore. And now that we live in different countries, and she's engaged and doing her Masters, and I'm traveling, I feel like we live very separate lives now. I don't know if I have a place in her life anymore. I just don't want to drift apart...

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Mar 6th, '17, 02:47    


Fire

Joined: May 31st, '09, 14:54
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Mood: O-sakura in Osaka! <3 <3 <3
Location: Wherever the wind takes me...
I am monogamous.
He is polyamorous.
I don't know if we can make this world.
He's running out of patience.
But I feel like I've already given up so much to make this relationship work. I'm so tired. Just give me time to heal. Please.

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Mar 8th, '17, 17:41    


Tatteredlion

Joined: Oct 19th, '16, 15:24
Posts: 87
Hugs: 1104
Mood: Defeated
I'm so tired.... I can't focus on anything. I'm falling asleep during the day and waking up groggy and even more tired.

I just spent half an hour trying to write out an emergency contact magnet... I found a pen that works but you have to do every letter and number over and over otherwise it won't show up. I'm not even done yet... I still have to finish the doctor name and medical information....

I just snapped at my sister she came over to "help" or no she came over to get money and then go to the bank. The phone started ringing and she ran to answer even after I told her to leave it. She says what if it's uncle Ken I want to talk to him. He doesn't call here.... funny enough when I checked the phone it was a Florida area code, interesting as he may have gone to Florida? I don't know. Now I feel bad, it's just I'm so tired and kind of stressed out. Wednesday is my day, dad is at his group and I can finally get stuff done. Well until my sister decided that she will come over to bug me.

The cat is out of cat food and I have nothing to feed him. I gave him egg this morning to tide him over and he wouldn't eat it.... Fussy guy. My dad who normally goes to his group on Wednesdays has decided just this morning that he won't go anymore..... Great. :qsweat: I think I'd rather stay in bed today....

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 Post subject: Re: Dirty Little Secrets...
Posted: Mar 10th, '17, 19:48    


Fire

Joined: May 31st, '09, 14:54
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Mood: O-sakura in Osaka! <3 <3 <3
Location: Wherever the wind takes me...
When the online therapy company refuses you service because you are too broken, and too at-risk, for non-traditional therapy... They won't even let me try...
I feel so alone.

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