ACAB indeed.

kenma, i just saw your signature and realised your username is from haikyuu I LOVE THAT SHOW!

ugh acab indeed, i can't believe how many people fail to realize how corrupt the police is. i've been reading the news way too much lately and everyday i get more sad and hopeless because the world is a very crappy place to live in

i'm having a rough time lately, i need like a 100 hour nap
i hope everyone else is doing well!

as all of you have already said: acab. acab indeed.

fact is, that whataver reason they have for joining the police they are complicit. some cops are good, yes. but all cops are complicit in upholding a corrupt system.

honestly im aware that a lot of bad things are happening, but im so tired that i don't have the energy to keep up with it especially when it hits very close to my chore beliefs or if it concerns my own country. i think sometimes it's just better to step aside and give yourself some space. we can't really fight if we don't let ourselves gain the strength to do so, can we?

@Mynah : yes it is!! i used to love haikyuu. I'm quite behind with the manga and probably still haven't watched some new anime episodes but it has been my comfort show for a long time. I'm trying to get back into it recently since the manga is finished at this point. i sooo want to know how the story ends
i just need to find the time to read it, but i really miss it a lot. kenma is my favorite character since the first time i saw him. he really resonates with me. i even cosplayed him. i obviously couldn't resist that hahahah

Moi wrote:

I feel you there. It feels like I don't get enough sleep. I mean, I know I don't because of medical issues but u8

i'm so sorry you're not sleeping well it truly is a curse
lately i feel so tired during the day i can barely cook something that takes more than 10 minutes to prepare. but then i can't rest at night! it's not that i can't sleep, it's just that i keep having nightmares and it takes me a couple hours to get back to sleep every time! and suddenly it's 8am and it doesn't make sense to try and stay in bed anymore.
get up tired, repeat. i really do need that 100 hours nap rn

kenma wrote: honestly im aware that a lot of bad things are happening, but im so tired that i don't have the energy to keep up with it especially when it hits very close to my chore beliefs or if it concerns my own country. i think sometimes it's just better to step aside and give yourself some space. we can't really fight if we don't let ourselves gain the strength to do so, can we?

i know you're right and we really should give ourselves some space, but sometimes it feels like all this horrible stuff is being thrown at my face at once and it's hard not to get frustrated.. i'm trying to focus all my energies into my projects, so that there isn't space for anything else. so far i'd say it's kinda working, but i'm exhausted

i do think we need to balance being aware about things happening with consideration for our own mental health.

some of the things we do in response to bad stuff happening is useful. but other stuff is useless. like arguing with bigots. especially on the internet. i just don't engage.

haikyuu is a comfort show for me too. i wish i could forget the show and watch it again as if for the first time

yeah i usually don't even bother fighting with ignorant people online, but in real life is a whole different story. i had always been the type of person to never say anything back in fear of being picked on, and would rather ignore someone if i didn't agree with them, until recently. now i started adopting what i call a "zero bullshit policy"
i learned that it's important to speak up for ourselves and others.

for example at my uni people often complain about, or make fun of, asian students.
the old me would have probably not said anything but i refused to silently be a part of it, and i called out people for being racist. same thing with mysoginists, who always feel like they can say anything because no one calls them out on their behaviour. at first i was scared i'd be making myself unlikeable in this new environment, but i discovered people would actually agree with me, but didn't want to say anything at first, sometimes even the ones who were talking shit at the beginning realize how wrong what they were saying is, after thinking about it!

the secret is to make the racists/mysoginists etc. angry and uncomfortable, while not letting myself be bothered by it. otherwise they'd never stop saying these things, thinking everyone agrees with them. i used to let it slide and just get very angry thinking about it for the rest of the day, but now? hell no. YOU get angry for the rest of the week for being called out because you're an ignorant idiot george. i spoke my mind and will go on with the rest of my day thinking i did the right thing at least.
(even though some people might not like it)