Kingdom of Knuffel

I'm Asexual as I've annoyingly mentioned before 8u
But I still find people attractive sometimes.
And when I find them attractive, I have trouble talking to them.
I think that's normal for a lot of people. Right?

I find Asian women attractive. They're either cute as hell or pretty as hell.
I had an Asian eye doctor and her assistant was Asian too.
Since I found them both pretty, I was like "PLEASE DON'T LOOK AT MY DISGUSTING FACE YOU'RE TOO BEAUTIFUL TO LOOK UPON ME UB"

But it's usually males that make me afraid to talk to them if I find them cute.
There's a guy whose videos I love to watch and he made a face reveal video not long ago and now I have trouble watching his videos because I know what he looks like xD

I often wish I was cute or pretty. Usually cute, though.
I could be this cute little girl-- woman that has no issues with people looking at her and not afraid to talk to people that are attractive.
Instead I look like a pissed off bulldog that runs from human contact >Bu

Don't get me wrong, I know I'm lucky. There's a lot of women who have been cruelly disfigured that would like my face.
I know that might sound mean when I don't mean for it to be, but it reminds me to stop being a whiny bitch and appreciate what I got.
But I would steal your skin and wear it if I could >~>

ANYWAYS that whole thing derailed 8D
How do you deal with people you find attractive?
Do you find it hard to talk to someone you find attractive?

hmm. i can and do find people attractive, and sometimes it makes it a little more intimidating to talk to them, but i think ultimately looks aren't really important to me as far as talking to people or making friends? i've always been considered relatively pretty though so i definitely have privilege in this sense even though i ... really do VERY little to work on my appearance LOL

at the end of the day though it's not something that's terribly important to me because most of my strongest relationships are formed online anyway... i have very few close irl friends and even then it doesn't really change anything.

the thing that does make it hard for me to talk to other people is like, credentials or people with high achievement... i get intimidated and worried they think i don't know shit LOL

I'm very awkward. I have trouble talking to attractive people, people who I think others might think I find attractive, people who I suspect might find me attractive, and pretty much everyone else lol.

Kingdom of Knuffel

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