Why Did I Say That
Posted: Apr 10th, '18, 21:28
Most of the time, if someone asks me if I want something, I'll say no because I'll either feel bad or I want them to stop talking to me.
But I always....wanted whatever they had.
So it's like...Why did I say that?
An example would be workers handing out food samples in stores.
Sometimes I'd love a food sample, but I'll say no when asked and feel stupid.
Another example would be when someone has cookies or coffee or candy sitting out in businesses.
I will want the hell out of the stuff, but when asked, I say no or I just don't grab anything. But I wanted it.
I also tend to agree to things I don't want to do.
Like if someone asks me to watch something, I say I will, but I don't want to.
Or when someone asks if I want to go to the store with them, I say yes.
But I don't want to go.
I think I'm a people pleaser. I try not to make people sad, but it ends up hurting me. I also feel self-conscious a lot. Like "Oh, of course my big fat ass would love some cake! That's why I'm SO fat! Yes, go get some cake, fatass!" or "People don't want to see your ugly face!" or "Your voice is annoying and you say stupid things!"
So I figure it's best to avoid people xD
How about you?