I had a mild case of that when I was younger. I just thought I was being normally shy. How do you support yourself? Do you get disability? I would assume you could be on disability due to that, but you'd have to see a doctor first.

I guess the fact that my parent aren't going to be around for me forever snapped me out of it. Plus being a mother. Not that I'm saying the same with work for you. And I'm not saying have a kid, but I think you'd better see a doctor and maybe get disability.

I wouldn't include my struggle as being a unwilling helpless NEET for months before getting another job as I don't see even a slight link of it to the topic.. so I'll just go into some of my past struggles.
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I have the same dilemma with socializing and trusting issues with others on my teenage years. I don't know how I've overcome that part of my life as I have received no medical help nor any advice on people outside the online world. Then I have seemed to reach a boiling point and got so pissed off with awful things going on with my life and how I'm unable to confront problems, that I learned to rebel and forcefully change myself. pretended to like things what society considered as cool people do. which thrice as stressful as my latter struggle.

realization hit when I got to experience both worlds of what I to change about me versus what I thought I really want for myself. well, that's how it worked for me. That's how I realize that I want to change but don't want to change to just fit in but to change for myself and be better. That's how I learned to balance the things I've learned from those experiences.


that's all a thing of a past now for me, I'm glad I get to snap out of that situation.

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phobia's are hard to overcome, so I know how you feel. You can't just snap out of it, it takes time. I have cynophobia, and up to this day I still hadn't overcome that fear, but I'm hoping to get rid of it once I got the time and sign up for some 8EDIT -- TYPO psychotherapy 'session' to overcome my fear.

yes, struggles freakin' scares me everytime and it doesn't help that I'm not priveledge to always find help from other people so in the end Im often left with no choice but to face it and come up with solutions to it.

I see. Well it's nice that you're doing stuff. Hopefully you'll get a job and hold it sometime.

Moi wrote:

DC: Yes, I get disability. I was diagnosed with it over 10 years ago and I've been through medications and psychiatrists and psychologists xD
And actually, my parents being gone is what has helped me.
Since I didn't really want to do anything outside the house, my mom would do it.
Since she's gone now, I have to do everything.
Which is great, but I still can't really function right yet xD;
Like if I were to try to get a job, I couldn't hold it.
Something would go terribly wrong and I'd get fired or quit.
And it would happen over and over.


Khalessii: That is what gets me to do things. I either get completely fed up or I just REALLY want to do something and make myself.
I always try to talk to myself about what's going on and how it's not as bad as I feel.
My psychologists taught me to do that.
Sometimes it's hard, though xD

It would have saved me some trouble in the past if I have someone who can give me an advice like that adults around me like my mom is an emotional wreck during those years with dad gone(died) and all. but I wouldn't be as confident as I'm now without those struggles so maybe they are a blessing in disguise after all.

I sincerely wish you well. you seemed like a nice person plus I'm a fan of your wild knuffel creations. you really got the skills and talent in that.

i've got anxiety issues and i'm bipolar. the manic highs are great in that i'm extra productive and i feel like i can do anything, but the depressive episodes really suck. everything i thought i could do while in my manic phase, i end up never being able to hold myself to them once the feeling passes and i'm back in the mood pit. it means i make a lot of promises i can't keep and overestimate my abilities.

this... has screwed me over a lot in the past. i'm trying to control it better now, but it's... .... interesting LOL