Kingdom of Knuffel

And very likely change who I am? No thanks

Eh, I've forgotten lots of people -all those random encounters in cities? Idle conversations with clerks at stores or someone waiting in line next to you at the airport, that kind of thing?
I do not really remember these people, generally.

And as for moments -of course I do not recall every single moment of my life from birth until now, so constantly I am forgetting moments.

And I am pretty sure most of it is a choice on my part, at some level. If something is really important to me, I won't forget it -so the things I do forget, that is in some fashion my choice too.

So I have already forgotten who and what I would choose to forget -but don't remember them enough to tell you about it.

I can't pick just one person or one moment. All those moments I regret, especially moments of humiliation. And I'd erase my last two years of high school because of the physical and mental illnesses I landed up with thanks to them. I don't care about what I learnt from the bad experience because it's not worth the continued suffering.

And I'd forget all my loves, and all the moments I loved them and it hurt. All of them were unrequited, and no matter how people might romanticize this particular type of suffering- I really regret feeling what I feel. (This wouldn't safeguard me from feeling again- but maybe every time I felt, I could forget what I felt.)

I do that too. I keep a count on things I observe people say and do. If they do something particularly mean or particularly nice, I remember it. And, yes, even if they're nice a lot of the time, if they're ever particularly mean it seems to weigh more with me. But I think that's because I have this idea that people learn to act nice anyway with socialization, so when they're mean it's like their true colours.

I kind of wouldn't mind forgetting my exes! But that also might make me doomed to repeat past mistakes if I were ever single again! So I don't know that I would actually do it.

I don't remember my past well, but what I do remember without fail are all the stupid things that I said that I regret saying because I sounded like an idiot or insensitive.

I'd forget all these little small embarrassments collectively, I think.

As for a person...? I don't know. I think the negative people I've known have had too much of an impact/role in my life for me to forget them without causing major structural damage to the rest of my memories and personality.

> I was told it's not truly forgiving if you don't forget what the person did.

i don't get this either honestly. if someone does you wrong, why should you just forget about it? odd.

i don't think i'd erase anything though. i think every memory/person in my life is important to creating the person i am today, and i like myself enough to say i don't want myself to change. i often think about this in regards to my life choices too- like, what if i had done this instead of that? but then, same logic. my mistakes made me me.

Oh man. I don't know. That's an intense question. The things that I'd like to forget are actually pretty integral parts of my identity now. I'd be afraid of what kind of person I'd be without those memories.

I've been bullied at some point in my elementary years and had a fair share of those humiliating and awkward moments in school like that time I doze off in my English Communication class and the teacher caught me and ask me to stand up and jump 3 times in front of the whole class and since I'm just so plain naive at the time I did what I was told and everyone burst into laughter that made me blushed like a crimson rose. looking back on that, sometimes I wish I have done something or should have just walked out.

and it was followed by a series of betrayal of that girl who used to be my closest friend in College until the pressure has become all too overwhelming that I transferred and decided to have a fresh start.

I became blunter(except now, cause I try to avoid confrontations IRL), friendly, witty and active in various school activities like cheering and etc. and now, I'm no longer that shy, naive, clumsy girl I was before. I started to see more of the harsh reality over hearts and flowers peachy side of life. I've changed and I think those situations are crucial or integral in the process of growth in all aspects of my life.

Kitalpha Hart wrote:And very likely change who I am? No thanks

This, I believe everything that happened to me shaped who I am.