Kingdom of Knuffel

I hate it. I hate it so much now...

But I used to roleplay for years (from age 13 to 20 something) and at one point had at least about 10 ongoing at the same time. I hate it when I have to wait long time for the other person to write their part or when they disappear without a word (meanwhile if given the chance, I could easily just sit down and write 24/7 or more, until I fall asleep writing). I also hate when I had to "dumb down" my own writing to their level. Not to sound like I'm whatever, but between a writer and non writer (as in writing outside rp) there's some pretty major differences and that can become quickly exhausting. Draining. And I did it for years because I'm stupid like that. Lol, as I tell some people now and then, my last roleplaying was with someone too much into writing mary sues (and wings, she loved giving wings to her sues), so I being pissed off as I was, answered back with my own sues (she didn't like it, but didn't stop either). Should've probably been a sign by then that it was time to stop roleplaying, but thankfully I did later.

Anyway. Maybe I could enjoy roleplaying again if I'd find that perfect writing partner. Maybe another writer. Also, someone who won't expect me to carry on the entire story and plot over my shoulders alone and actually give something to the story just as much as I do.

...But I don't think I'm ever going to risk my own sanity again for that. Fanfiction beats down roleplaying now, many times over. And original fiction does the same, of course.

Prolly interacting with others as a fictional character
And trying to guess how they'd react to something or other

I go through phases of really loving it and really hating it. A lost of the reasons I love it is because it makes any world, any fantasy possible and with a partner (or group) you never quite know what going to happen next.

But the reasons I hate it link in a lot with -Leo- 's reasons. I hate having to change my writing style to fit my partner, especially if they don't write the way I like with full sentences and correct grammar (obviously a mistake here and now is fine). I also really love descriptive RP's, where each person really goes into detail, like they're writing a fic, rather than just a few lines about what their character is doing - because that gets old real quick.

But I'm into it at the moment.

I've been roleplaying for years, I just love it. It's kind of shaky at first, when you don't really know what to do, but once you get the hang of it, it's so fun! I like the sense of community, the idea that you can go pretty much anywhere and use your imagination- sky's the limit- and mostly the feeling that you're writing a story, but with a bunch of different authors. Of course it's no fun without at least a basic set of rules, because then it's just chaos. But when it's done right, I love it. I mostly do one on one roleplays, or small groups, because it's easier to manage, but larger groups can be fun as well.

I roleplay in my head and that's as far as it goes. Mostly it's with my own characters and it helps me develop characters and story lines.

i think to enjoy roleplaying, you have to really enjoy storytelling where you're the writer. what i like about roleplaying is that it gives me an opportunity to organically flesh out a character so they feel like a person, with input from other people besides myself. in this way, they're being shaped through more than just my own ideas, and that's both more interesting and more exciting. my rp characters had some really surprising stuff happen to them that i'd have never otherwise come up with by myself.
not to mention, it's just really fun.

also, i don't rp sex anymore because it's really weird and uncomfortable to me now. i used to have no problem with it, and i really enjoyed having my characters be in a sexual relationship with someone else's, but now it just feels like glorified sexting. i think it helps if you're good friends with someone if you actually want to rp sex, but maybe that's just me.