For the love of god everytime i hear one of my family members talk about how covid is a scam, masks are a scam, the vaccine is a scam, or how the medical system is profiting off people’s fears, I wanna bash their heads with a crowbar. I started working for a hospital pharmacy before covid and continued straight through so i know what the “before covid” looked like compared to now. Its fucking bullshit that my asshole family can just talk about how they don’t believe in this yet i have to make paralytic drips for vented patients upstairs. The first patient we lost was the first covid death in our county and the entire hospital felt like shit but its not like we could take a break, no we had half a dozen other people who were all doing almost as bad so we just needed to keep going. We had one glimpse of sanity over the summer just to have it smashed to bits by college kids coming back and not knowing how to social distance and infecting the community and the holidays. We were up to 38 vented patients at one point in a hospital that only had 120 beds total. I remember having to make a narc drip and had to walk it upstairs to the nurse and the patient it was going to and we made and exception for a family member to come in in ppe because the patient was going to die. As i delivered it the family member was just holding their hand and here i am with the med that’s just gonna keep him under until he dies. Some days death just felt normal to us. We are a small hospital and have a small morgue for 3 people. There was a weekend that we lost 5 people one after another. 4 had covid. The nurses were devastated. I had been in our covid unit refilling the medication machine when a patient started to code and had to hop out of the way so the nurses can get meds. I’ve seen nurses just roll a crash cart in front of a room because they had a feeling someone was going to crash and nothing they were doing seemed to help turn things around. We’ve had patients under and vented for over a month. We had a mother and adult child both get vented for covid and the mom died while her child was still vented and under so he couldn’t even say goodbye. Don’t tell me this is all a hoax.