Kingdom of Knuffel

i believe i've had depression and still do although i feel its mnore bipolar and i don't know whats going on.

I also feel confused I don't know what my feelings are. I don't know I just dont' know.

I feel less alone but I feel like i odn't know who I am

I'm constantly worrying

and like any othjer teenager issue: i like a guy and he has a gf. I don't know if we'd be good together or not or if it'd be awkward but I don't think we'll be in the same school so I don'tk now if I should take the chance if he breaks up with his gf ans asks me. Just so many issues.

I just don't know

i like someone very much but i dont want a relationship before my graduation but it seems like he likes me too i dont know what to do if he says he likes me!
On the other hand i didnt think a boyfriend in my life before it is strange and against to how i see the world and what i want to be.
There is this thing that he is also happend to be my dad's friend's son ( i learnd it a time after we met) and thats all for now.

I wish I had the nerves to date girls in real life