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It's ok. I'm used to headaches. At least the headache this time is mild.

OMG are you ok!? ;A; That sounds horrible. I drink a lot of water because I get sick of sweet drinks easily. I also drink a lot of milk lol. But mostly water for me and then maybe one drink of some sort that is sweet. Like a coffee or a juice,
ect.

aw D:
I'd trade. I don't like being alone all the time. I spend probably 18-20 hours a day alone lately. Sometimes I'm lucky and kyle will sleep here a bit more since I don't like him sleeping anywhere else.
He's getting a little better about it lately tho. I had a really bad mental day a few days ago and told him I wanted to die and I think I accidentally made him feel guilty like it was his fault. but I'm just happy to get a tiny bit more time with him lol

LOL I thought the bunny bday was cute. His friend doesn't really have any friends but him because her past 2 relationships were very abusive and she didn't have contact with anyone. So her bunny is very important to her.
Kyle took pics and videos to show me. ;u; they took the bunny to a park and set up an eclosure for him to run around in. it was so cute! He was hopping around and flipping in the air. XD

UGH. I cut my foot today. I was cleaning out under a desk and I guess a piece of broken glass got dragged out when I pulled some other things out. I didn't see it and it got stuck in my foot. ;__; I had to dig into the cut to get the glass out.

now my foot hurts.

Well, at least it's mild

Yeah, I'm fine, just pmsing-royal-bitch-complaining-combo-mode XD I was this close to actually yell at my boss today for asking me stupid questions

For a tiny second I thought I would flip out...
Anyways, I just forget about drinking at home, so during the weekends I often get an infected bladder/uretra-thingy/dunne/whatevs/it-hurts-after-I-pee-dog-damn-it

It's because I have not enough water in my system so my uretra hurts. Or something. Technically it's just my theory unconfirmed by any doctor (mem hates doctors), but after watching myself pretty closely, I say that's what's causing my bladder problems. Because whenever I get the infection - it's weekend. On weekends I'm home and don't drink much (if anything at all...). I ruled out running around with my butt naked, so that's not it

That all reminds me I should wander to the kitchen and have something to drink

*goes away* *comes back* Okay, I gots me some water

I'm the type to usually like being alone. I'm kind of used to it, because I used to be home alone a lot in my life. Like older sister going out with her friends, dad drinking out (or in the kitchen lol with some drinking buddy or alone, who cares, technically someone was home, in reality I was alone anyways), and mom was always at work. I stopped inviting friends over because of dad and I didn't go out much because I was slowly losing friends and growing introverted. Then mom kicked dad out, then sister moved in with her boyfriend and I hit my puberty, mom constantly at work. I just sat on the PC all the time and grew so used to being alone all day that I was actually going insta-angry when I heard mom coming home.

#teenagers lol
Right now I mostly spend my time with bf. But when he's not around, I either miss him or take a nice breather and enjoy being alone

How often does Kyle sleep somewhere else? I hate it when Ash sleeps other places. The bed feels cold and I have to hug his pillow to feel better... Yes, I'm addicted, sue me

Raine, that's manipulation! XD

Aww, then in that case I can definitely understand the bunny b-day

Besides, hey, I love bunnies. They are awesome >w<

Ohmygosh, how!?

*puts magical balm on Raine's foot* Poor you

Aww D: I'm glad you didn't yell at your boss!

LOL you should drink more. Everyone here should remind you. Mem, go drink something. lolol
It's very very dry here so I drink a lot. Otherwise my throat gets all sticky and dry. @_@

I like being alone a lot too. Just. This is a lot more alone time than I have ever had before. I'm trying to get into being online regularly again because that's what I used to do with alone time. But I've been having trouble being motivated to do anything at all. =_=

Kyle doesn't sleep elsewhere often. Just a few times, but I told him that it made me uncomfortable so he only does it if he's too tired to drive home.
A-ah! I didn't mean to manipulate! I was being honest to him. I'm just saying that there was an unexpected upside to the ordeal. >////> I'm not the kind of person to joke about that just to get my bf to be around me more.

thank you ;A; My foot still hurts and the bandaids keep falling off. >_< I'm ready for it to be healed now. But I heal SO slowly. uggghhhh

I'm glad as well, after all today he let me go home and work remotely because of my stupid period being a meanie

I mean, he's a nice guy and a good boss. I often imagined bosses are just dicks who think you're a machine for getting the job done and then don't even try to complain if they paid you less than they should. But he's my first boss and he's like super cool XD I mean, yeah, he can be annoying but I guess I'm just bad with people and they annoy me, it's in my nature XD

Haha, yea, maybe they should... I had a smartphone for a day (until bf decided it's not good enough for me and told his uncle to sell it off...) and immediately installed an ap that reminds you about drinking water. That droplet was so cute QwQ Anyways, it kind of worked and my hopes were up but then... yea, bf decided it's not good enough XD which is sweet, but also makes me feel detached from the world because everyone else has a smartphone, even older people and here I am looking like a grandma with my regular keybord phone XD
I drank a glass of water today,then half the glass (but it was with my period pain killer) and then a cup of cocoa. ... Yeah, I should go drink water now XD

Is that autumn blues that makes you feel so unmotivated or general depression-like state or what? I feel like crap lately and I wonder if maybe it's the autumn blues already -.- I have trouble motivating myself for anything as well.

Haha, sure you didn't mean, I'm just teasing you

Manipulation isn't cool.

Oh dang, how do you walk?

Aww that's nice! Kyle has had bosses that are meanies and think he's a robot meant for working before. They suck. I only ever worked one normal job and the boss was... interesting. She was very mean to most people but for some reason I make people like me so even though I was very bad at my job and they ended up moving me in the back to do dishes she was nice to me.
(she came into the store drunk once though and hit on me... so that was..
interesting lol)

oh D: I'm sorry you don't have a smartphone. I'm sure you'll get one eventually.
I didn't have a phone at all until a few years ago. Everyone around me had phones for like 10 years and I was the only one without one. XD I go my first one because it was kyle's and he upgraded to a newer one and gave me the old one.
The one I have now is the... galaxy s6 I think? I got it new as a gift from kyle.
I had an anxiety app installed for a while to help me when I thought I was going to be homeless. But now my phone is like 80% for games LOL

I'm glad you're drinking a bit more today lol. I have a bad headache again.
>_< So I've been guzzling water like crazy.

Hmm. I don't think it's autumn that makes me unmotivated. Autumn is my favorite season. I get more energy and I want to bake all the time lol.
I think maybe just general depression? idk? I'm hoping that the cooler temperatures lately will perk me up.

@_@ Kyle didn't tell me that our bank account was so scary lately and I've been spending all this money on games. I'm like.. trying to make adoptables really fast to make up for it lol. But then I was really upset yesterday so he borrowed money from his dad to give me game money to cheer me up. He said he wanted to get me flowers but the store didn't have any of the ones I like. (I think they only had lilies and I can't have those because they're poison to kitties). I feel so spoiled now though lol.

how are you today mem? <3

Lol, maybe she was nice because she kind of liked you more than she'd care to admit while she's sober XD Yea, that's interesting indeed.

I didn't miss having one until I got one for that one single day, lol XD That's funny, right?
Aw, I can somehow relate, I got my first phone after my older sister and pretty late compared to my pears. But the most important thing was - I got it

XD
The phone looks nice ^w^ but it's Samsung, right? Ash dislikes anything made by Samsung, he calls it Scheissung XD LOL But or me all that is the same

Oh, that's an interesting app, how did it work?

XD

Actually today was a challenge, as I was at home, so easier to forget about drinking. At work I somehow remember, no idea how. My guess is - the glass is in my eyesight and in my arm's range. At home I don't have a decent desk and usually no place to put a glass so it would be close enough and visible for me...

*uses healing touch on your headache* Uh, I wish it would work xD

Really? More energy in Autumn? o_O I get all sluggish and would gladly go into hybernation like a bear XD
I hope they will help you

*hugs*

Aw, ouch, scary bank x.x *kicks the bank* Why didn't he tell you though? It's important to communicate especially about money-related stuff so people would know what they can afford

But it's nice he wanted to cheer you up somehow ^^ Ash bought me a bouquet of roses after I defended my thesis, first flowers since forever. And bought me the MilkyWay's Magic Stars, and I felt REALLY spoiled XD
Lilies are poison to kitties?!

I did not know that!

Oh uh... *is taken by surprise* I'm okay I think. Been dying in the morning, asked the boss to let me work from home, then bought cookies and ate half of the pack myself... stomach pain decreased significantly, I went to therapy and now I'm back home, last minute kofking before going to sleep in about 15-20 minutes

But stomach still does not hurt, so I'm pretty happy about it. It was really hard to endure it this morning. Luckily the prescription pain killer works, so yea

And you?

Edit: I noticed I ate some letters up there, but I'm too lazy to make it better

#lazyass

LOL maybe? XD

Aww. D: I can understand that.
I like samsung. It's cheaper than apple and it gets new features first. I don't really understand the apple hype tbh..? it looks almost the same but costs a lot more? Plus the features are always a bit behind, yet they treat it like it's revolutionary? I don't get it? I don't mind a cheaper phone. In the end you don't even notice it. And my samsung I've had since it came out and it still works perfectly. so...? *shrug* to each their own.

The anxiety app was neat. It had little activities to help you calm down. There was like a breathing exercise, a coloring-type page (the image would be blurry or in black and white and as you move your finger across the screen it would clear up or fill in colors), umm it had a little thing that asked you questions like rating how you feel and stuff to help you focus on that instead of what was making you panic. It worked really well. I think there was like 6 activities but I mostly used only the coloring one because I liked it best.

D: Make sure to drink something! lol
That makes sense though. I remember to drink a lot because my drink is right next to me. I like having something with a straw in it because when I draw I set in front of my face with the straw in my mouth and just drink while drawing like that. XD otherwise I forget. I forget things when I draw. =_=
I hold my breath a lot and end up gasping or I will look up and my eyes will be red from not blinking. LOL

Usually kyle and I talk about everything, but I guess he thought I seemed too stressed out the last few days and he didn't want me to worry over it since he was taking care of it anyway.

Yes! Lilies are poison! If the kitty eats it they'll get really sick and possibly die ;A; which sucks because they put lilies into cheaper bouquets a lot. My cats haven't tried to eat them, but if you have lilies definitely be careful.
I wish my living area wasn't in the basement. I'd have a lot of cat-friendly plants for them to chew on. But everything I buy ends up dying pretty fast since there's no sun.

oh no! I'm sorry about your tummy pain. ;_; I'm glad it's better for now at least. I hate tummy pain. I don't get a lot of cramping, but I get tummy aches from a bad diet sometimes. >_> And they suck.

I'm good! Aside from the headache I'm pretty happy today. I've been working on some simple adopts that are looking cute so far. ^^
I'm looking forward to tomorrow because kyle said he'd spend the whole afternoon with me. But then he leaves out of town for 3 days with his dad to pick up an old ambulance in texas. So I'm sad I'll be all alone for 3 days.

I missed the "on" and thought your boss was violent towards you so I was concerned for a bit. I'm glad it wasn't that bad.

What's the name of the anxiety app, if you don't mind me asking? It sounds very helpful.

LOL oh god, I would have been out of there if she hit me @_@
nono, thankfully no one hit me lmao. XD

UMMM I don't remember the name.... *peeks into app store*
I am like 98% sure it is the 'Self Help Anxiety Management' by university of the west of england. The pics look exactly like I remember the app looking, and I remember the app was by an university.
If I remember right it also keep track of all the times you tell it you're anxious so you can figure out what is triggering it.

I hope it helps if you try it out. I might download it again tbh, lol

@Raine: I don't get the apple hype either x.x For me it's a phone for snobby people XD I'm probably wrong, but that's my head's stereotype, you have an iphone, you probably care only about how expensive it was and you own that expensive shit -.- Oh well. For me the important thing is if it makes and takes calls, if I can text on it and since that one-day-smartphone, if I can install an app that would help me keep myself hydrated XD Yeah. And maybe it could make decent photos. But that's it I guess.

That app sounds really great! Though I don't think I'm having panic attacks nearly as often as to actually download it and use it

But I approve of the idea o3ob

Lol, today at work I was so busy, that only after over half of work time passed and I realized I've only had 1 glass of water and 1 cup of tea... XD But when I got home, the first thing I did was to make the super-potion as I call it: water, ginger, lemon juice (freshly squeezed) and honey :) It's good to start drinking it again because I already feel there's a cold somewhere in my system, I legit feel it x.x
Loooool, I feel you, I always forget the most basic stuff when I'm really focused on something. Hence me getting dehydrated a lot XD I just forget about the whole outside world existing and do my thing, even if it means forgetting about going to the toilet XD Before you ask: no, no accidents, I do feel I have to go, but I keep telling myself the infamous "just one more" or "in a minute" and my brain gradually forgets about the need and I end up not going at all...

Until I finish my stuff that is, then it's suddenly "whoah, that's the longest I've peed in my entire life!" (lol, not true, I'm a hold-it-in master XD) I forget about a whole bunch of other basic stuff as well, Idunno why I focused on peeing

#plebs

That's kind of sweet he didn't want to make you even more worried QuQ

I'll keep that in mind then, I didn't know x.x I intend to have a cat in the future. That reminds me, yesterday Ash searched out pics of Turkish Angora cats, like on his own, because he felt like it. He's the "cats suck, dogs rule" type (at least on the outside). I was truly shocked, especially he said that race is gorgeous and he wants it XD #mindfuck
My plants die becaus eI'm plain bad with plants in general

Yeah, it was period related. I'm much better today :) I do have diet-sort of stomach pains sometimes tho. But after I figure out what food causes it, I just try to avoid it, to avoid going to a doctor and checking if maybe I'm allergic XD

Aww, sorry you'll be alone for so long again D: I'd visit you, but kinda can't XD But at least you'll spend some more time together before he leaves ^^

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