Kingdom of Knuffel

I know all too well about memory issues. My stress from my whole life til recently are the cause of it besides taking face dives 21 or so times on a hard floor because I was dealing with an ulcer I didn't know I had at that time.

It's sad when people mess with someone's head/memory. But sadly people do and I let my mom do it soo many times that now I have the right of mind to not think I'm wrong and believe a idiot. I know the truth and that is all that matters to me anymore.

I hate people who lie severly hate it but I think it's because growing up I knew I was being lied to and just wasn't fully aware of it.

Sad that happened to your father. It really isn't right at all. No one should ever do that but sadly we got the jerks in this world.

I usually hit myself instead when I was angry and stopped when it caused severe pain I couldn't move my arm anymore or had a headache, thankfully I stopped doing that thanks to my husband.

HAHA that's kinda funny about that guy. I don't really care who did the tattoo but at least he's probably not too happy with where he is now.

I heard about that girl, didn't read the article of what she really said. But I'm just happy she got sometime considering a woman bullied a girl who was a teen into suicuide and got nothing at all. This woman purposely tortured a poor teen girl to kill herself over something stupid as fuck who her daughter went to school with and her getting nothing at all really pissed me off. I knew damn well she needed punishment but of course courts did nothing at all. It happened a year or so ago I think. This chick should get more time for sure, but at least she got something compared to that damn adult who tortured a child. >.> I wished our systems worked better.

For fuck sake a rapist gets less time than a weed dealer in most places. Ya that makes total sense. My dad was accused of sexual harassement I think but got 3 yrs in prison (he was to get 5 but only served 3). My cousin's father I mentioned yesterday served a few as well and he raped two girls everyday while the baby's mom knew what he was doing to her own kid and someone else's kid. I couldn't believe he got like nothing. >> Also fucked up I had to tell my cousin that her dad did do that when she asked me about it last year. She's an adult now but... Not something someone should have to answer. She believed for years it didn't happen and she even started to talk to her father which I wasn't too happy about but nothing I can do about it but say it's not something she should do.

My memory loss started in early 20s for me. I think it had alot to do with stress. The psychiatrist I saw to from the state said it was the stress I've been under but now I'm starting to think it might also be autism that added to it. I've been reading more about it in girls and there's a good chance that I might have a slight form of it. I wouldn't doubt it. Too many things just fit it big time and it being hard to see in girls since we are easier to hide it and just certain things about me fit it. So I think I had a couple things that started the memory loss off and just another that added to it the older I got.

I shouldn't of listened to so damn many people growing up and I realize that now but I see it as a way to learn from it. Now I know the truth on things, and I can finally think for myself. I always found the bad things to learn from. Not sure why I did that growing up but it's something I have always done. Not sure if it could work for you. Since we both listened to idiots and it caused pain, but I find learning from it better. I guess this way my brain doesn't break as much and flip out for the dumbness of what I did.

I only lie to protect the people I care and love. Won't lie otherwise unless it's to my mom but honestly I don't think that counts. Since I'm not really protecting someone I'm just saving myself more problems from her. And I heard she's really talking shit about me back in Wisconsin but I don't care. Her loss not mine.

I am stupid enough to believe anything. Still am a bit but I think I'm slowly getting out of that. I notice I take more things with a grain of salt than I did a year ago. I can attribute that to my hubby helping me get past everything.

I hope that girl realizes what she did and feels worse than trash to be honest. Some might regret what they did, seems alot do that the older they get but there's others that feel nothing at all. And those are the ones to be scared of.

I just don't understand some people's logic. No matter what was used to sexually assualt someone or hurt someone physically it's still assault to me. I guess you got to experience or see more of that to believe that way. Or those people who say it's nothing are just worthless and shouldn't really live. I'm a bit harsh on complete utter trash mororns. Bad habit of mine.

People who do bad things that should be in prison way longer than a few months or years.. I just don't understand how they get out. Especially if you count in Manson who actually did nothing physically and still can't get out to save anyone's life. If he can get prison and still is stuck there for doing nothing but supposedly telling a bunch of druggie whores what to do then someone who does something, actually does something should get more time since they did cause the pain or death of another. This world confuses me at times.

I know that was a bit of a harsh comparison but it's the simplest and on point one that I could think of at the moment. I hope I didn't offend you Moi with that.

I quit school and that is one thing for sure I don't and will never regret. To me it was the best choice for me. I got picked on even by my own teachers. In 9th grade a great man came into my life. Social Studies teacher always picked on me every single day and for the first time in my life someone stood up for me. He told the teacher why don't we learn instead of picking on me. I can't remember his name even though that is something I should remember. He was a grade above me (that's how the school worked at the time, people a year above you would be in your class too), sat kiddy corner behind me. A year later he killed himself in a public place in town. Even his girlfriend had no idea he would hang himself from a very tall tree. Most of the school was missing when his funeral was held. First time I realized someone actually cared about me and I attribute me being alive to him and my phobia of death. But his sacrifice to me, made a huge impact on me.

That is so true. Things do come and go. I just wish more happiness and good fortune was here than the bad. Would make life so much easier.

I'm very awkward but it's a bit better now thanks to the hubby. Even meeting new family of his wasn't so bad one day. A huge thing for me. Normally I'd be sweating a shit ton and feeling sick as hell to my stomach.

I wish more people would change for the better but one moron I know, my horrible ex I'm hearing is worse than he was when I knew him. Like he's even ignoring his own blood children for his new girlfriend's kid. Sad since you should never ignore your own kids when you say you love them and such. But the ones who do change I think are the good ones since they know more about life and experienced more and can help more people do good which this world needs badly.

Our justice system I don't think will ever make sense to us. It's sad that when cops have feelings and know something is off like that case you spoke about can't do shit. I know they need proof and that but for god sake I highly doubt some are wrong when it comes to the safety of people.

I read an article yesterday about India. Seems girls underage are so fucked it's not even funny. It was a 10yr old girl who can't even get an abortion. Her parents told her there's a stone in her tummy that is causing her the pain instead of saying she's 7 months pregnant with her mom's cousins kid. The girl was raped by the guy who is in jail right now but the parents have no idea what the hell to do about anything right now and I can't blame them really. It seems girls can get abortions in India but her being 10yrs old and 7 months pregnant she can't since it's not safe for her. They plan on doing a c-section for the girl when it's time according to the article since the government said that's all they can do and the girl's parents are giving up the child. That girl will be so screwed for life and this makes things worse for her.

I guess the girl was always a bit chubby so no one noticed she was pregnant because of that. That... jesus christ is just beyond belief horrible on everyone.

Too many innocent people have either been put to death or killed in prison for things they never did and the ones in prison for rapes or that they never did is just so sad to me. Since it seems rapists especially child ones have it worse with other prisoners. Now if they did it, I don't care how they are treated but it seems to be harder to prove someone is innocent now a days. Even read an article about a woman who is in prison for killing her mom but her attorney is trying to get a new piece of evidence that was never turned over to them put in a new trial for her I guess since it was from a guy who has not that great credibility and was the cause of getting the woman in prison. Who just walked into her home and found her mom dead. Kinda sad but I do hope that she can get free if she really didn't do anything bad at all.

More and more things are directed at kids now a days and the bad people out there can use that crap against their victims and it's sad. I do think that kids should be allowed to be kids while they can. Too many as it is have to grow up too fast for their own good. And this whole new thing about transgender being taught in some schools at too young of an age for kids to know better or parents wanting their kids to get the drugs to stop them from being their gender at a young age isn't good. Read an article about someone in England who's changing their sex for the third time. 15 got drugs to turn into a girl, 18 stopped them to go back to a boy but now wants to be a girl again. They should only be allowed to do things like that when they are old enough like adults, not a kid even a teen since they are still growing and are easily twisted to think something when it might not be the case. I'm not saying I'm against trans people but I think age has a huge place in this since it can destroy someone's life. And that person from England said getting the drugs at 15 caused them to be suicidal and do drugs when they got older. >.<

Thank you. I never really think about that guy but I do know that he did make an impression on me. Took me til I was an adult to realize what he did and that it was there I just didn't see it. Though I keep what he did quiet because I don't want to take the chance I hear bs from people I went to school with who didn't know him like I did and think oh well blah blah blah about him. I'd rather have the memory of what he did and that all in my mind.

I'm not too sure what that guy on facebook was trying to say. Is he saying that worrying about transgenders isn't as important as worrying about the shit violence we have going on? I'm guessing that might be what he's trying to say. And just because someone isn't in the military doesn't mean they can talk. >.> I just want this world or should I say country be fixed but that might take too long to happen with the baby in "office" and there's too much shit on the news about how corrupt everyone around him is. So much going on about the Russian investigation, people being investigated by higher ups and one guy had someone at his door before dawn because they are really digging hard into these people. Then the whole Trump told his son to lie with the whole Russian thing. >.> It might sound bad but to be honest I don't care about the transgenders being accepted into the military. I know it sounds mean I just think we need to worry about our government at this moment and try to fix it before it gets worse and I DON'T want to know how worse it can get. I just know it can.

So many things need to be fixed and yes everyone should be protected and accepted it justs somethings need to be first on the priority list than others is all I'm trying to say.

I just hope that guy did try to run a cop over. We don't need another cop did this bs again. Minnesota has that with a colored cop who shot a white woman who called them because she feared a woman was being assulted near her home and a witness said she saw the woman lean over the cop car window and bam, she was shot. No idea what's going on with that case haven't heard anything for a couple weeks. And a colored boy who's 8 killed himself after being bullied in Ohio and his parents are suing the school because they failed to even warn them about it or even care he was unconscious in the hallway on the floor for several minutes. >.> We really need to fix these problems before we can worry about others. If we could handle everything at once we would and that would be awesome. Just realistically we can't. And the cops are one big thing that needs to be fixed right away.

I don't give two shits if people have abortions. I don't see a problem with it. Now if they are careless and don't care if they get pregnant and abort non stop then yes, that's bad. But my god it's dangerous for women to give natural birth it's been said multiple times by higher ups in science. One country makes women have c-sections because it's safer than natural. And I'm sorry but if the mother will have a higher chance of dying, there's nothing wrong with aborting. And especially like you mentioned. No child needs to live a hell of a life to die not long after they are born. That's just cruel and seems to be more harsh on the parents because they hold their breathing baby and then it dies. Seems too cruel to me.

I hope I'm making sense. >.<

If she hurt herself before she called the cops... I'd even wonder if she's honest or not. Seems not right in the head a bit. Or she's just that cruel of a human.

Everyone has a right to be happy. Hopefully it's not at the cost of another being that is.

I heard about that eruption but the sites I saw it on weren't too reputable so I didn't pay attention to it. I just hope it doesn't happen. Wouldn't want the future human race to find out how bad things are now when they are around. We should leave a good example at least... Finally.

Ah that makes sense what the guy on FB meant. I agree with him. But sadly people won't think like that because everything has to be fixed or worried or whatever about at one time. Can't worry about the most important things first.... Wished we would.

I didn't hear about that. Only thing concerning teachers is that there seems to be an influx of female teachers doing their damn students. One claimed he tricked her into it and she was like 50 something... I thought we had that enough in the 90s I guess it came back because it was time for the trend to be revived.... And last month I read an article about the poor boy who married his teacher who was arrested for their whatever you call it. Been married for over 10 or so years and he said he was really messed up and has some mental issues and he is overly careful with his daughters because of what he went through in a sense. And he had a good point. No teen or kid knows jack about love at that age. Too damn young.

I hope that story about the gay teacher is wrong because.. Ya that is so important over the other people that are actually bad... Or I might be wrong that they are bad. I can't keep track of what's right or wrong in this world anymore. Keeps changing. I swear.

I heard about a couple of people who did hurt themselves or kill themselves to get back at someone. Not really sure how to take that to be honest. That is one thing that is hard to figure out. Not sure if they are crazy or mentally ill. I find a difference between the two. Not sure if I can explain it though. I might confuse more than myself.