Kingdom of Knuffel

I'm sure he got angry because he's worried about your eating habits, just didn't handle it well maybe try setting an alarm every few hours to help you remember about eating? I installed an app to remember about drinking fluids, I forget about it a lot so maybe something like that would solve the problem?

He gets angry if i eat too close to dinner because i'll spoil it but it's been three hours and god knows when that will be

he's just a huge jerk a lot of the time for no reason

Sounds like my mom. Is there any chance that you will be able to move out soon?

I could but honestly its just far easier to live at home while im at school

Is it just your dad that you live with? Or your mom too?

What are you in school for?

My Issues Are Kinda Long And Complex,So I'll Try To Keep It Short: I'm Both Lonely And Angry All The Time. I've Always Been A Outcast (Even When I Was Little),So I Have A Hard Time Making Friends And The Few "Friends" I HAVE Had Always Drifted Apart. My Love Life Is About As Much Of A Wreck-I Have A Girlfriend (I'm Pans),But She Lives In Serbia And Can't Seem To Give Me The Kind Of Mature Romance I Need (I'm Looking To True Love,Not A High School Fling). I'm Worried,Though That I'll Never Find Anyone Else Due To The Fact That Few People Are Willing To Put Up With My Insanity And Those Who ARE Are Mostly Just Horny Guys That Would Likely Leave The Moment I Let Them Do Me. I Have A VERY Disconnected "Family" Life,So Even Talking To Them About Stuff Is Out Of The Question. This Makes Me Feel Pretty Lonely,About 24/7. Aside From The Overall Self Hate,To Top It All Off I Also Have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). This,Alone Causes All Manner Of Problems And Makes It REALLY Hard To Connect Or Relate To Anyone. All And All I'm A Hot Mess Comes Off As "Upbeat" And Happy,When I Reality I'm Just Trapped In My Own Misery And Don't Want People To Pity Me Or Think That A Pep-Talk Can Fix Things: I'm Not SAD,I'm TORMENTED And Just Telling Me To "Be Positive" Is Not Helping. Ugh,Well I Think I Just Depressed Myself (Again) So I Should End This Right Here.

@Sekhmet: I kind of understand. People tell me to be positive all the time but well... It's not easy plus it's even the problem.
The only thing I can think of, if you cannot talk to anyone in your family or have no other close people... you can chat here with us. In this thread or you can go to any hangout, here's mine: ⁂＊ℭonfetti ℜain＊⁂ and there's also February's hangout: Group Therapy, the title says it al
About your girlfriend, have you tried having a talk with her? About your expectations of one another and your relationship? Or is it impossible right now?

@memoriam I've Tried COUNTLESS Times To Talk Things Though And Even Went Out Of My Own To Go Though Her 400-Some Facebook Likes,In A Attempt To Find Something We Both Like That We Can Focus On (I Decided On Horror,But That Has't Gone Anywhere). Thing Is,Nether Of Us Even Have A REASON To Be Together: I'm With Her Because I Don't Want To End Up Alone,And She's With Me Because She We Are Already Together And She Does't Like Change. It's Quite The Sticky Wicket.

Well, if you're with her only because you don't want to be alone, maybe it's better to actually leave the relationship? It's tiring to be with someone just for not being alone. I do understand your main problem is that you feel alone in every aspect of your life. But such relationship isn't worth your while in my honest opinion.
If you have trouble making new friends and finding a partner, maybe you could try out some dating sites. I know it may sound bad, but there's less and less stigma around couples who met online and if you're not good at making new relations then maybe chatting with someone first would help you open up and ease into the new relation? I'm not good at making hew friends either but I know chatting online actually helps me. Maybe it would work for you too.
And even if you are single for a bit, you can try and focus on yourself, it can be good for you. Like a me-time for a bit until you find someone. Do the stuff you like, maybe try something you've always wanted and now may be a good time. Take a course about something you're interested in, then if you get there and there are other people you already have something in common.

I've Tried Tons Of Dating Sites In The Past,And They All Turned Up Flat. Kinda Hard To Meet People,Online When You Don't Really Get Along Well With People In The First Place. Like I Said Before,Not Many Are Willing To Put Up With My Insanity So That Leaves Me With Few People That Would Even Stick Around Long Enough For Us To Become Friends. As For My Girlfriend,I Know It's Toxic And That I Should Have Moved On Years Ago But At The Same Time I'll Be Left With No One If I Do. The Problem Is I Have Too MUCH Me-Time. I Don't Have Any Friends To Hang Out With,I'm Disconnected From My Family,I Have No One To Love Me And I Only Now Just Got A Job As A Dogsitter (Half Because I Don't Have To Deal With Humans,Too Much). I'm Alone With Myself All The Time And That,Alone Ain't Good For Me. I'm Just So Trapped Within My Own Life That Everything I Try To Do To Get Out,Just Ends Up Failing And Leaving Me Back Where I Started. It's A Pretty Hopeless Feeling,Ya Know?