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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 13th, '17, 22:52    


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Footsteps, but Tae couldn't stop crying right now. Thankfully if it was Lain, he didn't come in and the footsteps went away again. He didn't want anyone to see him like this.

Lain was suffering too, that fact was very much in the front of his mind. Not only was Lain hurting, but he was hurting the band too. If Ju-Kan and Haneul didn't believe them when they said nothing was going on, then there was no way the company would believe them! He and Lain would lose their contract and it would hurt the others. And it was all his fault.

However, he couldn't let go of his anger. Lain just saw him as weak and Tae wanted to prove him wrong. He could defend himself. He didn't Lain to stand up for him because of pity or guilt.

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You know that place between sleep and awake? The place you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting.

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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 14th, '17, 16:05    


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Ju-Kan knocked lightly before entering Tae's room. Haneul, seeing that Ju-Kan was done with his video call, left to his room. Lain saw Ju-Kan enter and leave the door slightly ajar, so that Tae's crying was audible to him again. After a moment or two he couldn't contain himself and tiptoed to the crack.

He peeped. Tae was a lump in the bed. It hurt because it was so cute and it doubly hurt because Tae was crying and it triply hurt because it was his fault and it quadruply hurt because he couldn't do shit about it.

Ju-Kan rubbed the lump-that-was-Tae's back and murmured indistinctly for a bit, like he wasn't sure what to say. Then he said, "This really is for the best... I know it's difficult at the moment but you'll feel better with time. Trust me, the alternative, of being together with him... it would've ended with you two, and the group with you, in a much worse place. You've avoided that. This is much, much better. Even if it doesn't feel like it is right now... you'll come to realize it."

Lain tiptoed back to the living room and curled up on the couch. But his sleep was so fitful that after a while he gave up and just stared at the dark ceiling, listening to the kitchen clock ticking loudly throughout the house. He knew he'd need sleep for whatever came tomorrow. But his mind wouldn't quiet. Suddenly he wasn't just thinking about how it was so messed up that he'd kissed Tae... he was also thinking about how Tae had hated it so much and it had hurt him so much. It was obvious to Lain that he'd hate it and it'd hurt him. But Lain just couldn't stop thinking about it for some reason.

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Stroctoperry wrote:Because KofK trumps homework, for some reason.
Death Candy wrote:I just realized that "take out" means food, dating, and murder. And if you were a female praying mantis you'd have all three.
Akili Li wrote:People talk about bravery in these super dramatic terms like it only applies to soldiers going to war, but for all that I think true courage is found in the hard every day moments of social interaction and standing up for what you believe in even when it's not life-or-death, when it's instead a matter of approval-or-ostracization among people whose opinions you care about. That's harder, to my mind. That's an ongoing, you have to live with it forever thing, instead of one single moment that's the exception instead of the rule.
AsheSkyler wrote:Bless the modern era's availability of so much art and creativity. [...]our ability to connect and share such wonderful things makes it a good time to be alive. :qh:


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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 14th, '17, 19:43    


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A knock. Tae froze, trying to hold back the tears. Ju-Kan came over and started rubbing his back and Tae broke down again. He was reminded that Ju-Kan didn't understand the real situation. However, Ju-Kan brought up the fact again that if Tae had let things keep going like they were, the group would have been hurt.

"I-I'm s-sorry, hyung..." He mumbled quietly after several moments. He had composed himself enough to speak. Although it was hard to let these feelings show around someone other than Lain. Whenever he'd been upset before, usually it was with Haneul, he wouldn't cry around Haneul or Ju-Kan.

Haneul usually just found it funny. And Tae didn't want to seem like more of a child around Ju-Kan who was so much older than him. He didn't have a choice now.

"I don't...I don't want to hurt the group..." That much was obvious, but he felt like it was all his fault. "I'm sorry, hyung..." He mumbled again, his body curling up more under the blanket.

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You know that place between sleep and awake? The place you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting.

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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 15th, '17, 13:18    


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"There, there. Don't be sorry, you haven't hurt the group. You're protecting yourself and the group right now. I'm proud of you." Ju-Kan said, his voice kind. "Nothing like this must ever happen again, though."
~
Inevitably, the next day dawned, and much too quickly. Lain watched the ceiling lighten. None of the nervous energy of the day before had diminished with his weariness through the night. He still jangled with it. He didn't feel ready to face the day. He was clammy with sweat, and his limbs felt weighed down.

He really just wanted to sleep.

Ju-Kan entered the kitchen, then called "Lain, how come you're not up yet? I want breakf-" he walked back out and caught sight of Lain on the couch. He strode over and bent over him. "You look terrible." He pressed a hand to his forehead. "You're running a fever..."

Lain tried sitting up. "No!" He croaked, sounding nothing like himself. The manager would've planned many things for the day, would he have to disappoint her? Ju-Kan pushed him back into a lying position. "Just stay put, will you?"

A soaked towel was put on his head.

"Thanks." Lain said, "How is Tae?"
"He had a good cry yesterday," Ju-Kan said, sticking a thermometer into Lain's mouth. "Let it all out. I told him I was proud of him for doing what's best. He'll get over it." He read, "A 101 degrees. Could be worse." He sighed. "I can't believe the whole thing is affecting you this bad though."

Lain tried sitting up again. "It's not because of that!"

He was flung back into the couch. "Is too!" said Ju-Kan, who Lain was beginning to think was being an incorrigible romantic about this. Remembering him going all mushy about him being afraid of being 'separated' from Tae still made his insides writhe. "Stop worrying about Tae and take care of yourself first! You'll just make yourself sick pining-"

"I'm not pining-" He wished he could yell through his croak.

"Are too! Now stay put while I try to haul Haneul out of bed."

"Good luck with that," mumbled Lain, groaning into the couch cushions and wishing his body would ache less.

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Stroctoperry wrote:Because KofK trumps homework, for some reason.
Death Candy wrote:I just realized that "take out" means food, dating, and murder. And if you were a female praying mantis you'd have all three.
Akili Li wrote:People talk about bravery in these super dramatic terms like it only applies to soldiers going to war, but for all that I think true courage is found in the hard every day moments of social interaction and standing up for what you believe in even when it's not life-or-death, when it's instead a matter of approval-or-ostracization among people whose opinions you care about. That's harder, to my mind. That's an ongoing, you have to live with it forever thing, instead of one single moment that's the exception instead of the rule.
AsheSkyler wrote:Bless the modern era's availability of so much art and creativity. [...]our ability to connect and share such wonderful things makes it a good time to be alive. :qh:


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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 15th, '17, 16:07    


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"You haven't hurt the group." Tae needed to hear that, to know the group was still fine. Then Ju-Kan told him nothing like this could happen again. He managed to nod quickly.

"Yes, hyung..." Of course, if Lain did something, Tae might not be strong enough to stop him. He mentally shook that thought away. Lain wouldn't try anything. Eventually Tae had fallen asleep, Ju-Kan staying there until he did.

Morning came and Tae eventually woke up. He made himself get dressed. He had gone to the bedroom door and heard Ju-Kan and Lain as he opened it. He shut it quietly again.

Lain was sick after everything that happened. That couldn't be a coincidence. Was it really this hard for Lain. Tae felt horrible. Not enough to apologize to Lain for pushing him away, though. He was just worried.

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You know that place between sleep and awake? The place you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting.

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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 16th, '17, 19:48    


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Haneul walked up to Lain, zombie-like. "You're... sick?" He mumbled blearily.

"It's nothing serious," said Lain.

"I think... I'm sick too..." He said, flopping down on one of the single couches, his head lolling back, threatening to doze off again.

Lain snorted. "Yeah, sure." Ju-Kan, who had brought fresh soaked towels for Lain, rubbed one vigorously on Haneul's face. Haneul yelped.
"I hope that freshened you up," said Ju-Kan. Haneul stared at him as he proceeded to apply a towel to Lain with the bewildered reproach of someone taken advantage of at their most vulnerable.

The doorbell rang. Lain and Ju-Kan looked at each other. "Shit."

The manager was not happy with them. "How could you get sick today, Lain," she sighed, as though he'd done it on purpose. "Well, it's a photo shoot so we can do Lain's later... but it'll have to be off-location, at their studio..." she decided, "We'll make do with the rest of you. I hope you're all ready."

Ju-Kan swallowed. "Lain usually makes breakfast..."

The manager threw up her hands. "We'll have drive-thru on the way! There's no time!" She looked at Haneul who looked non-prepossessing and said, "at least fix him up first!" Ju-Kan took another towel to Haneul while Lain said, "Where's Tae?"

"He's probably waiting for the storm to blow over," muttered Ju-Kan.

"I have an apple in my bag from yesterday," croaked Lain, "Could you transfer it to his bag-"

"For crying out loud, I have enough to do, there's no time!"

"Fine," grouched Lain.

"You need to stop being so sappy over him."

"I'm not being sappy! I'm just taking care of my dongsaeng! He had a rough day yesterday, after all!" Because of me, he silently added. He didn't want Tae to have to eat at a drive-thru first thing in the morning because of him as well (he couldn't care less about the other two.)

"Tae had a rough day?" said the manager. Lain's mouth clamped shut and Ju-Kan glared daggers at him like You're so stupid I could kill you. Lain said, "Um, he just wasn't on board with me dragging him to dance to 24 Hours without warning. The unpleasant surprise just stressed him out... he was just tired."

The manager still looked suspicious, but left it at that with "I'll go transfer that apple for you."

"Thanks, Manager-nim," said Lain with relief. He wiped off the nervous sweat mixed with the sweat from the fever with the towel.

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Stroctoperry wrote:Because KofK trumps homework, for some reason.
Death Candy wrote:I just realized that "take out" means food, dating, and murder. And if you were a female praying mantis you'd have all three.
Akili Li wrote:People talk about bravery in these super dramatic terms like it only applies to soldiers going to war, but for all that I think true courage is found in the hard every day moments of social interaction and standing up for what you believe in even when it's not life-or-death, when it's instead a matter of approval-or-ostracization among people whose opinions you care about. That's harder, to my mind. That's an ongoing, you have to live with it forever thing, instead of one single moment that's the exception instead of the rule.
AsheSkyler wrote:Bless the modern era's availability of so much art and creativity. [...]our ability to connect and share such wonderful things makes it a good time to be alive. :qh:


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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 17th, '17, 00:07    


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Tae heard the knock at the door, but didn't leave. He wanted to prolong going out there as long as he could. He was totally ready to go, after all. He heard their manager come in and start asking about Lain being sick. That made him feel worse. Like it was somehow his fault that Lain was sick. He didn't like that he was sick. It made him worried. Especially with how busy they were now.

Finally he could hear things get quiet again and he slowly opened the door. He managed to hide the fact that he'd been crying all night, thinking only Ju-Kan would have known. He had no idea that Lain knew too.

"Good morning..." He greeted his hyungs and their manager. Despite still feeling really sad, he couldn't be rude. Besides, if things were going to ever be okay again, he had to pretend like they were. Right?

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You know that place between sleep and awake? The place you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting.

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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 17th, '17, 11:56    


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The manager-nim placed her hand over Tae's head. "Cheer up," she said briefly. She went into Tae's room, and came back out with the apple from Lain's bag, handing it to Tae without a word.

"The rest of you, change into decent clothes, wash your faces and spray on some deo."

"Shouldn't one of us... stay back to take... care of Lain though," said Haneul slowly and indistinctly. When the Manager opened her mouth looking unsympathetic, Haneul quickly continued, "I mean... I don't think I'm well either so I should-"

"Ha, ha," said the Manager in a deadpan voice. Ju-Kan put his arm around Haneul's neck and told the Manager, "I'll wake him up," with a grimace and a thumbs-up, dragging a dread-struck Haneul to the washroom.

"Take care of yourself properly and get well quickly," she told Lain. Ju-Kan and Haneul came back looking presentable, and they all set off.

Maybe it was because Tae wasn't in the house with him, but Lain was able to fall into a light sleep listening to the ticking of the clock that only seemed to contribute to keeping him awake last night.

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Stroctoperry wrote:Because KofK trumps homework, for some reason.
Death Candy wrote:I just realized that "take out" means food, dating, and murder. And if you were a female praying mantis you'd have all three.
Akili Li wrote:People talk about bravery in these super dramatic terms like it only applies to soldiers going to war, but for all that I think true courage is found in the hard every day moments of social interaction and standing up for what you believe in even when it's not life-or-death, when it's instead a matter of approval-or-ostracization among people whose opinions you care about. That's harder, to my mind. That's an ongoing, you have to live with it forever thing, instead of one single moment that's the exception instead of the rule.
AsheSkyler wrote:Bless the modern era's availability of so much art and creativity. [...]our ability to connect and share such wonderful things makes it a good time to be alive. :qh:


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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 17th, '17, 13:23    


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"Okay..." Cheer up. Like it was easy. He was confused about the apple though. She'd gone into his room. Meaning it had been Lain's. Had he told her to get it? He wasn't sure he wanted it now. Ju-Kan and Haneul came back and they were leaving.

Tae got in the back of the van sitting in his usual spot. The van felt emptied without Lain in his spot. He was definitely starting to worry about him more. However, he couldn't show how worried he was. That would only further convince Haneul and Ju-Kan that something was going on. He hated that they thought that.

As they drove, Tae slowly ate the apple. It would be rude not to, even though Lain wasn't here to see if he did or not. Plus, he was hungry anyway.

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You know that place between sleep and awake? The place you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting.

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 Post subject: Re: Vertigo {Tinker Bell & Ambarsariya}
Posted: May 19th, '17, 17:09    


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Lain awoke an hour or so later feeling slightly better, enough that he was able to get on his feet. He stumbled into the kitchen and made himself some yarrow tea. He'd had a habit of watching cartoons whenever he was sick from childhood, and now he pulled his knees up on the couch and sipped his tea while watching Tom and Jerry repeats.

After another hour of that he napped again, and then had a cool bath. He seemed to be getting better, and he was glad. He really couldn't afford to fall sick.

He felt a twinge that Tae hadn't asked him how he was even though he definitely knew he wasn't well. Even with his having to stay home. He wasn't surprised about it, or even angry, more angry with himself for bringing things to this with Tae. The twinge of hurt was drowned out by a savage serves-me-right kind of feeling.
~
The shoot was taking place in a graffitied garage, with psychedelic lighting, so that the resultant photos were super psychedelic too. They were wearing acid wash jeans and shiny jackets so colourful they looked like they'd been crowded with stickers.

"I like the aesthetic... but does it really suit our style right now?" said Ju-Kan.

"They're teaser promo pictures for your next comeback," said the manager, and wouldn't say any more. Haneul hounded here to reveal more details but she said the concept was still in development.

"I'm getting like an R&B, hip-hop kind of vibe," said Ju-Kan when the graphics editor showed them the final images on his computer.

"I don't like that we change concepts so often," said Haneul. "Changing so much so often... it kind of gets to me."

"Well there's one thing that won't change," quipped Ju-Kan, "the ships."

"Because hearts can't change so easily, hyung," said Haneul in a syrupy voice, "and I can't give my heart to anyone else when you won't give it back to me."

"Oh, ha ha. Keep it down or someone'll hear and get the wrong idea."

"Since my heart isn't mine to give," continued Haneul undeterred, "when will you return it to me, hyung?"

"Too bad I already digested it. So you don't have one. Explains a lot, huh?"
Haneul, for once left without a repartee, stuck his tongue out at him.

Ju-Kan sauntered over to Tae. "How you doing, kid?" They'd put a sort of wreath of what looked like fairy lights in his hair, and though god knows who came up with such an idea, they suited him.

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Stroctoperry wrote:Because KofK trumps homework, for some reason.
Death Candy wrote:I just realized that "take out" means food, dating, and murder. And if you were a female praying mantis you'd have all three.
Akili Li wrote:People talk about bravery in these super dramatic terms like it only applies to soldiers going to war, but for all that I think true courage is found in the hard every day moments of social interaction and standing up for what you believe in even when it's not life-or-death, when it's instead a matter of approval-or-ostracization among people whose opinions you care about. That's harder, to my mind. That's an ongoing, you have to live with it forever thing, instead of one single moment that's the exception instead of the rule.
AsheSkyler wrote:Bless the modern era's availability of so much art and creativity. [...]our ability to connect and share such wonderful things makes it a good time to be alive. :qh:


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