i'm so sorry, work has kept me off the comp until now!

i remember, you've been through a lot of rough events. :/ i think it's perfectly reasonable for your depression to have worsened.

ahh, hm i don't know enough about it to know if losing weight would help. but losing weight would mean less stress for your body in general which might in turn help the sleep apnea. o:

are you fucking serious? that's.... :||||||| shouldn't they check that thing in the first place?? do you at least have your other medicine now? DX

and i've not heard of that root o;

you are more than welcome to invade anytime, vee <3

@Moi; I know >< *squeezehug* I wish I was nearby so I could be of more help :/ sometimes it's really good just to be somewhere else, I used to escape to friend's houses... or just outside xD;;

that's awesome!! keep up the good work! :D i'm trying to lose weight on my thighs lol, let's work hard together xD

hmm I see. .__. does that mean you have to go back to the Ambien?

dsfjldkjf that sounds terrible?? was it from the root or was that part of the anxiety attack?
and I know that feeling.. sometimes I have realistic dreams and I can't tell if I was dreaming or if that actually happened <<;

stupid for wanting your own place? pff that sounds perfectly sane and fair to me XD after a while you start to really want your own space, so. would you want to move to a city or anything, or stay in the same area?

dude, nice!! :D and yeah I had that problem too. XD something's gone but?? dunno what?? also clothes suddenly dont fit so good?

ahh I see. :/ have you gotten more of it yet, then? and woah, awesome! it's so good to hear that you finally got some rest XD sometimes natural stuff works better.

i guess, but that still seems silly to me. xD it's not like you need a whole house for just yourself either, right? and yeah that makes sense, you're ready to get out. owo

well it's not healthy if you're going hungry/starving yourself etc, but lowering your portions and decreasing your appetite isn't necessarily bad. just as long as you're not forcing yourself NOT to eat and make yourself sick doing so, etc. oh, and eat stuff that isn't just junk when you do eat. xD

ahh okay, so you still have to wait Dx hmm, is there something in particular you get anxious about? is there anything you can do that relaxes you, like listen to some music? lately I've been drinking a relaxing tea before I go to bed and that helps.
there's been a lot of changes for you in the past 3 years though. is there more that you're worrying about, too? i know a lot of my anxiety affects my sleep as well. when my depression etc was at it's worst, i would have nothing but nightmares, i'd wake up screaming, and i got frequent bouts of sleep paralysis, sometimes everyday. it made me avoid sleeping for as long as i could, i'd go to bed at 8 am and that sort of thing... and even that way i couldn't get a restful sleep.