Lacrimosa wrote:Oh, okay. owo; I'm not sure what the technical difference is, and now I'm not sure which one I see. XD But one is for meds and otherwise I have a therapist I see weekly.

psychiatrists are the doctors. they are the ones who figure out your symptoms, make a diagnosis, perscribe meds. they don't talk to you about your problems or subconscious or whatnot, they just deal with the medical side of it.
psychologists, on the other hand, are basically therapists in this context. they can't prescribe meds, they can't make a medical diagnosis, but they can talk to you in a way psychiatrists aren't trained in *shrug*

Ahhh okay, thanks for clearing that up mercu! Kind of what I thought but I wasn't sure anymore.. <w<;; those words sound too similar

glad you finally got your meds! I had a horrible night too, had this hideous chain of nightmares that would continue when I fell back asleep.. so there was no way for me to escape them |D;;;

Oh okay. XD At least it's soon... And well if you're anything like me, working out related problems (depression, anxiety, physical health) will help you get to the point where you can at least decrease the dosage you're taking. I used to take 2 trazodone, now I take a quarter of a pill. xD

Ugh I know! I'm sometimes able to stay awake for a bit, but I usually wind up in this weird haze where I keep waking myself up and falling right back asleep. I couldn't tell if I was also dreaming that I was waking up or actually waking up. .__.
Whenever I get sleep paralysis though, I have to go sleep in a completely different room or I can't sleep anymore. The terror won't go away. XD

"OTL sounds really rough, I'm sorry ;__;

Well, I don't really mean get rid of it. It's never so simple or easy as that, unfortunately. I personally was never able to think happy thoughts either, and I hate it when people tell me I just have to think positive and good things will happen like LOL yeah fuck you too. :V Sorry that's just a pet peeve of mine.

But it's something you work on gradually. I was diagnosed with a severe depression at age 8, and now I'm almost 24 and only now can I say things aren't as bad as they used to be. My anxiety still cripples me at times, I still have really bad bouts every now and then. But through lots of hard work through therapy, medications, and just trying to get healthier habits I think I can say things have improved.

I really hate it when people act like those are things that need to be "fixed", so please don't think I'm saying that. You can't scratch it off like a scab either. It's a part of you, and it's not going to go away that easily.

I know you're working really hard Moi, you've already made a few changes here and there that I think are going to help. Diet is always a good place to start, even if its just doing a little more veggies or cutting down your caffeine intake. If you can afford to do more regular sessions, I think that would help you too. I know it did for me. It took me quite a while to be comfortable enough with my therapist that I could talk to her about the hard stuff. It's not easy or fun, and you'll probably hate it at first. XD But there's things that need to be worked out, or at least have someone listen to your concerns and anxieties.

I sincerely hope things improve for you Moi, and I'm here to talk if you ever need it. I've gone and typed out a wall, I'm sorry. XD

And yeah. Sleep paralysis is fucking terrifying I'm not gonna lie. |D;;;

I know, right? It's so absurd. .__. Sleep, you mysterious beast.

I'm so sorry Moi, I feel awfully that it's gotten worse. :C I know you've had some other things happen as well, which probably didn't help. I don't mean to push that mine has improved, it's just I honestly never thought anything could ever get better. I sincerely felt like the best thing that could ever happen to me or anyone in my family is if I was to simply cease to exist. I feel like it's kind of a miracle that I don't feel that way everyday anymore, so.. ^^;
Was there anything different in your situation several years ago?

A sleep study is actually a really good idea. o.o If you stopped breathing, maybe that's sleep apnea?

What! They gave you a new one but nothing to use in the meantime? xD; That sucks.. I hope the new one works well. x.x

A root? Can't say I have.. I've heard melatonin can be helpful. I've also found acupuncture to be extremely helpful, so has a coworker of mine.