I just had a bad dream.
I dreamt about someone told him that I love him.
And he just laugh...and tell me to go out with my girl friend istead of him. (I'm not bi or lesbian, dude!)
It was really, really a nightmare
I almost cry actually...
seeing that I've loved him for almost two years, for nothing.
I guess he already had a feeling about this in reality but he doesn't really care.
It's bad to love someone who doesn't care about you at all *cries*

I still love you, Riky V...
I always do..
Can't you just share your heart with me?
I know my mom said to me that you're not suitable for me, you didn't pass her standart (what??)
but still...can't help that I love you so



ANOTHER DAY.
hehe, not sure if I'm allowed to double post, so I'll just post here.

Hey, RV, can you feel my sadness?
I desperately want you.
Although I had a feeling that you're not meant to be mine.
I prayed, everytime I had a chance, I pray to God so I can be with you.
But nowadays, I changed my prayer.
I pray to God, so I can forget about you and move on.
Move farer and farer from you...
So I'll laugh one day about this feelings, thinking how foolish I am to be in love with you.
And no matter how hard you chase me after I forget you, I won't feel any regret to leave you now.
So, until that time...just wait.

Why have you allways made me do everything and not her? I don't care thats shes from anthor mother. It bugs the shiz out of me. I she the favorite? Or is it the age? Or that I get stuck home more? Is it because I don't complain?

Can you quit calling me the golden child! I have allways hated that name. I wonder about why you even started calling me that because the other one say the reason why Grandma doesnt make me do stuff is because I am the damn golden child!? I hate being blamed and I refuse to blow up all over everyone.

Why do you hit people. You should know its not very nice to hit people. You thought you have seen me blow up on you when I pushed you over and cursed at you. I regret pushing you over. But I am ick of being slapped. And don't talk shit about me. The only reason why I fall is because I dont have much of a base just a stick. The reason why you dont fall when Ry hits you is because your fat!

It annoys me when I take 2 hours out of my day to make you a meal then you eat it in 45 secounds. I wish you would stop eatting like a prisoner.

I am glad I have met you. Yes it was on foopets but I am glad I met you. I migh have been gone or just depressed if it wasnt for you. I've struggled but youve helped me.

(Note: If anyone reads these every paragraph is a different person.)

Ive spent the night up thinking.

How am I going to torment you every day since you cost me 4 weeks of pain, suffering, loss of hope. I might take someones advice and get you thrown in jail...

Well your fat and ugly now so I could Shave your head in your sleep or something...

I am not sure..

Out of all the 207 people I have on Facebook, there are only 3 that know the REAL me behind my daily mask.