Kingdom of Knuffel

All the time... But I think she's stuck in the mentality of "better be with anyone than alone"... She likes him, but I know she doesn't feel like head over heels about him. He cares about her (in his own, creepy and annoying way) and she thinks its the best she can get.
I think his stubbornness will only get worse with time. And he's not really capable of change (being stubborn is one, then he's old, so that's two).

So yeah, I tell her what I think of him. even when she first introduced him, I immediately told her I don't like him and he has a very creepy vibe around him. But then she tells me: "well, your doubts don't help with my doubts" and I'm like... if you have doubts, then maybe follow your gut XD
I really hope she doesn't marry him, he's so weird and creepy D:

We'll see, I'll try to convince her not to do it. (Feels like I'm a bad daughter somehow, lol) I will be seeing her today after work and I think she'll try to talk about it and if not, I'll try :)

There's another minerals and jewelry expo tomorrow!!! and on Sunday, idk when I'll go, but I'll go :D

So it turned out that they'd already been to a jewelry store and they ordered both her engagement ring and the wedding rings... ... ... I flipped out
I'm okay with her just liking him. If he makes her feel well, then fine, if it means she will be happy. BUT, even she agrees that it's not going how it's supposed to and so I'm mindblown about her lack of assertiveness. If she thinks they should first make things straight with the notary about money, then why the hell did she agree for him to order the rings? I don't get it. Fuck logic. It's so stupid I don't even.
That's even not taking into consideration that I believe he's a bit of a nut crack. Of course she tried to make me think why, and she suggested it might be that I'm simply mad about him taking my mother away, like I was mad at my now brother in law that he was taking my sister away... But it's gibberish because I'm a grown woman and I don't need her as much anymore, we don't even live together. Hell, I have no reason to really depend on her other than emotional support on some matters.
And it was also gibberish when it comes to my brother in law. I wans't mad at him, I simply didn't like him. I was mad at my sister for the choices she's made. And everybody tried to make me into a hurt, lonely little sister that I wasn't. I felt betrayed, but not simply because she got married etc. It's just stupid. I effing hate it when they all are trying to tell me that basically I'm just jealous about my sister/mother, while it's really not about that. It only proves that they think I'm a child. Still. Which I guess is normal, since I've been the youngest in our huge family until our cousin had her daughters, and I'm also still the youngest in our close family so yeah, everybody apparently still treats me like a child, which only pisses me off more.
But that rant wasn't meant to be about that...
My point is, they're probably getting married and I don't really look forward to being the maid of honor, but on the other hand my mom doesn't really have anyone else for that role except me or her mother.... and she doesn't really like her that much, their relations are complicated. So I think I have no choice than to agree...
Plus he's a bit crazy. And I know crazy eyes because my dad has them at least every freaking time he's under influence. So I know what crazy eyes look like. They might not give the same kind of crazy vibe, but it's still a crazy vibe. And I don't care if her therapist says he doesn't see anything crazy about this guy. For one, I don't know that therapist, maybe he's a shitty one, considering she's been going to him for years and still there's no change (although I think the blame is also on her, she gave up on herself and doesn't really do much to change). Plus he never actually met my mom's bf so he can't really know, because he also only gets her perspective. She told him what I think about her bf and he told her he doesn't see anything alaring in his behaviour, but I do and I simply don't trust her therapist, okay? Therapists are people, they can be wrong. But I've noticed I'm hardly ever wrong about people. I usually have a hunch that they're not right, even if they seem nice at the beginning. I might even fall into the trap and then I'm slapping myself for ignoring the feeling I had when I first met the person.
Ugh, that was a long rant with a slight detour...

Also, I bought two rings and a pendant at the jewelry expo :D Although I didn't find everything I wanted, that one was smaller than the previous expo. But anyways, I'm pretty happy. Next one's in October >w< Maybe it's good, because I basically spent my raise on that jewelry I must admit it asn't a big raise tho...

And thanks for the compliment! <3 I hardly use the onyx eyes and short hair, but this time I thought they go pretty well together.
I think I'll be changing it soon tho >3<

I should've know she would do that eh, I'll find out more on Friday...

Right? You can tell! Idk what it's about, maybe auras, magnetic field or what, idk. But it works.

That's the worst! Then they start thinking there's something wrong with you, not the person you have doubts about. Then a long time later they come to you, say you were right about the other person and they ask you how you knew and all you can really say is "idk, I just knew". It's either in the eyes or in their gestures or sometimes just how they carry themselves, but it can be none of those things and you still get the vibe. It's a good skill, but also it's pretty annoying