well you are you. thats a fakt and! twistend thoughts are normal i think...


a little secret? i ate to much today... O.O again... but why? i didnt want to eat that much while my dad was on a trip with his girlfriend =_= why the hell do i eat now as sonething like boredom killer? i didnt the last two weeks... i ate quiet normal and now is eat to much?
i hate it!

wow ylusk thats horrible... thats something i wont wish someone....
thats something i would go to a therapy... i hope you will get better some how

well you know i know very good that not every therapy helps... sometimes you hafe to find another psychologist...

i tried 6 psychologists but non of them could help me with my fear of not existing creatures *chuckle* well i was 15 back then when i constantly paniced over things like that... by now i can handle the fear better ... if i am happy and dont feel gloomy i sometimes forget completly abot my fears of this dark stuff... in dark corners i cant see ath the night...

other ppl think my fears are stupid but i cant help it ^^ its a bit of paranoia ^^

nope they are NOT!

My dad is psychotherapist and he helped alot of people! i swear!
i think he is good at his job but a total failour as a father sometimes xD
so now im good for nothing i think ^^

well as i sayed none of them could help me but well i think they tried theire best to help me. but they couldnt. they also admitted that they couldnt help me ^^ so i think its okay. only one of them sayed 'sure i could help ou, but you need mor hours here' blah blah -.- i couldnd stand him he was a lier!
but the others were very nice.

what i try to say is some problems cen sloved some not and sometimes you have to find the right therapist... :)

this thing that parents failed ... now i think its sure noraml but i know that they failed ^^ im good for nothing ^^ so... they sure failed xD

for as long as i can remember, i've never really liked children. a while back i figured i'd end up completely alone, but in order to keep myself from committing suicide i figured that i'd adopt a kid. recently, a lot has changed and i decided that i wanted to get fixed and never have children. now i'm starting to doubt that, and it scares me. i'm sure i'd be a horrible mother, as i don't know how families are supposed to be because i've lived in an abusive home all my life, among other things. . .