Kingdom of Knuffel

i used to write down my dreams if i remember them lol. xD now i rarely dream.

I just tell my friends my dreams. =w=
I'll have to tell my counselor it too. =/ that one was way too weird.

I don’t have friends. XD not many RL ones, if any. Online friends yeah. I guess. Pft.

o3o I have.. 2? IRL friends now.. though one moved out of state so he's a internet friend now I guess... Bry is still here tho. ovo


But it's mostly my internet friends I talk to.

I feel like…that’s 2 more than me lol. XD i dunno if i have anyone that i would consider a close friend. There’s my coworker down in the retail kitchen. We sometimes take the same bus home and we’d talk about our day and about anime. XD

I prefer online friends. easier to deal with. =w=


Hurts more when IRL friends betray/abandon you..

Yeah true. Still, even online, the number of friends I have is small.

You seen my group of friends in my discord.. + moi x'D


then there's just people I sometimes talk to.

Yeah you’ve seen mine too, maybe probably. Its really just you and like…maybe 1 other person. 2 if i stretch it. XD

I'm socialble online.. o3o
IRL no thanks.. oxo


I made a thingy.. its not really a poem.. it doesn't rhyme or anything..


It's a barrier, a force field.
Going near it causes my heart to pound.
I want to puke, pass out, fade away.

I wish it would keep everything out.
Land Manager, Government, Neighbors.
It can't. It only keeps me in.
I'm not as safe as I feel.

It's a door that leads to the outside world.
A world full of hate, discrimination, and love.
I'm dizzy, in pain, and scared.

I wish it would stay away from me.
The people, crime and shame.
It won't. It keeps interacting with me.
I'm not as free as I wish.

It's a trigger, provocation.
I can't breath when I pass through it.
I suffocate, asphyxiate.

The 'fresh' air out there harms me.
Smoke, pollen, chemicals.
It can and will kill me one day.
I'm not as healthy as I look.

It causes shame and self loathing.
Physical pain and emotional anguish.
Ostracized, bullied, cut off.

I wish everyone understood it.
Instead they refuse to believe or learn about it.
Criticize, judge, and belittle.
Make it worse.