Funsies! Do you buy more when you're with her or less?

Yeah, her mom was a druggie so she got taken away from her. My mother was supposed to be the one caring for her, but I got stuck with it. Her dad promptly abandoned her and then shows up years later, after her mom died, wanting 'a relationship'. I begged my mom to refuse, but fuck if she's going to take my opinion on anything. So he visited once, then abandoned her again for like a year, came around again I begged mom yet again to not allow him around my niece. But like I said, my opinion apparently doesn't matter. Abandoned her YET AGAIN. Then about a year later he came back around and mom started letting her go to his house for the weekends and shit. And then he fucking molested her. I fucking hate my mother. She is a goddamned idiot and any judge with any brains would not have let her care for a dog much less a kid. All the female children put in her charge have been molested. And I know at least 2 of them, if not all, could have been prevented. My brother also claims he was molested, but he is a pathological liar, so I'm not sure what to believe.

Sorry for raging out on you.
It just makes me so damned angry because people think that I'm a horrible person for hating my mother. If they knew my side of the story they wouldn't judge me.

I did get your message, but it was right before I went to bed. I sawwy!

My classes were cancelled today cuz now the teacher's sick! I hope I didn't give her what I have/had.

The same as if I was alone. :o

That's fucked up. I always think it's weird when fathers don't go around their kids til they're older. My mom is the same way about not taking advice and having poor judgement with people. She was dating that crazy alcoholic for nearly 3 years. It's not as extreme as in the case you mentioned but. I wonder if you mom even feels guilty about it? Or does she just not care?

It's okay! I really don't mind. I have heard a lot of people say that if you say you hate your mother/father. "You should never hate your mother, they're your mother and they gave birth to you." ._. It's annoying.

And it's okay, I'll drop it whenever!

That's good. lol

I'm pretty positive that she doesn't even realize how much pain she put her kids through. I explained her lack of love really fucked me up as a child. She treated me very coldly when I was young. She rarely hugged me, never told me she was proud of me, ignored me most of the time, and bought me presents that were actually presents for her in disguise. I told her about this a while back and she acted genuinely surprised. Like she had no idea she did something wrong.

Yeah, I don't get the sentiment. My grandmother's mother beat her and let men rape her and all kinds of other shit and she claimed she still loved her mother.

I'm sorry, but if someone acts like they hate me and lets me be raped/molested then I hate them. I don't care if they're my mother.

I feel so alone all the time because I hate my mother AND my father and like everyone I know loves one if not both of their parents.

I am constantly jealous of people's healthy relationships with their families. Mine is just so fucked up.

Well, I'm on now so how about 7:40?

Some people aren't parent material. At all... like my aunt. She gave her children to a girl's ranch thing because her new husband didn't want them there. And she didn't even think twice about giving them away. She didn't visit them or anything. My mom went and got them on holidays and they stayed with us and we always went to see them.

I don't dislike my mom but I don't feel close to either of my parents. Especially not my dad. I try not to talk to him. People do find that weird that I don't care much about family... I'm more concerned about my cat than my parents.

I'm sorry! I left for work a little earlier since M was being a douche. Let me know when you're on again!

It's true.
Wow. Did she get in trouble with the law? What's a girl's ranch? Is it an orphanage?

That was kind of your mom.

So you're kind of ambivalent towards her. That's better than hatred. lol. Were they inattentive? Or like not hang out with you or something?

I love my pets too.

No worries. What's up with M?
I'm on. lol

Hmm... no not that I know of. Yeah, it's like where parents who don't want to raise their kids can take them. There were other girls there who had parents but they just didn't want them to live with them I guess.

Yeah, I like my cousin a lot too. We had a lot of fun!

Well, my mom seems kind of like... there but not? Like I feel like she doesn't listen when I talk or that it's not important to her. And my dad is impossible to communicate with. I never know when he's lying or telling the truth.

Tell me when you want the *stuff*.

That's insane. I think that if you have the kid and you don't give it up for adoption you should have to take care of it. Those people are terrible and should be ashamed of themselves!

That's good. I hate a lot of my cousins. They suck.

Interesting. I hate when people lie to me. Don't talk to me if you're gonna lie.

Post hast. lol

Yeah, I agree. They are pretty messed up people, well one is dead now but still. Her son is the only one she talks to a lot, he's like on drugs and shiz. I think a lot of my cousins are... I don't talk to any of them anymore. Haven't in years and years. Since I was little!

I know. I already don't trust anyone...

Drugs are dumbbb. Illegal drugs. Not like drugs you need from the doctor.

I do have a bit of a pessimistic outlook on life.

I do too! A horrible one. I need to be more positive but I slip all the time, it's hard to always look on the bright side.

Everyone says I'm really negative.