Kingdom of Knuffel

My parents finally separated, but I wish they had done it years ago.

My brother is getting on my nerves. He started to yell at my mom the other day because she was overhearing his phone conversation and she didn't like what he was saying. If he didn't want her to hear his conversation he should have talked anywhere BUT THE LIVING ROOM.

I'm just so fucking exhausted and tired and DONE with my parents and sibling...

I'm not ready to go back to work. I have so much anxiety about it, idk why it appears when I've had a tiny bit of break in ANYTHING. It was the same in school and uni, it is the same with writing and drawing, it's the same with work. I feel there's something inherently wrong with me, like I'm broken and not fit to live in a normal society.

Don't text me a message asking we should chill soon and then ghost me the whole day.

I spent money again... Not that it's a bad thing to spend money. But it seems I'm hypomanic again. I told that to the doctor and she completely brushed it off. Idk, maybe it's more of compulsive spending due to anxiety? Whatever it is, it makes me spend money on stuff I don't need. I want them, but I don't need them. I fear I'm getting out of control.

so fucking tired of the cold and snow and ick already.... just let it be spring and stay nice...

I'm tired of being the mediator and the reasonable one. I just want to relax and enjoy my time with my nephew.

vent on missing this site so much and don't know how to get back into convos