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Bump.
Feeling so stressed D: I just need to vent about it because there's not much I can do right now other than what I've already been doing. On Sunday I'm doing a photoshoot with a really important client which could be something that earns me a lot of money in the future, and I haven't managed to secure a model at all yet. At all. I have three possibles and no one will get back to me. I'm chasing as much as I can but no replies. If I don't get anyone I'll lose £32 of hire fees for a hall, as well as this possible client. I would normally just say screw it and model myself, but I don't think I'm their demographic and since they know what I look like, that would most likely lose me any chance of future work.
Then on top of that we're looking for a house right now because we have to move next month, on Valentine's Day. We haven't even had time to look at more than one property yet. I don't have weekdays off and my partner works Saturdays, and the estate agents hardly do Sundays. Now our agents want to start showing people round our house, so even on his days off in the week, he's going to have to stay in the house for that rather than going to look at houses. He did have some Saturdays booked off earlier but then our asshole landlord organised a visit from an electrician that we needed on a day in the week, and he had to change his day off to the Tuesday so he lost both the first Saturday and the second (as he can't have extra days off during the same mon-sat period). So thanks to that we've looked at one single place which was too expensive and we have less than a month to find a place, sign for it, do all the finances and paperwork, and move in. And to make it worse I actually really love our place now, but we have to leave because our landlord is such an asshole.
On top of all this even further, I have a driving theory test booked for the end of this month. I haven't had time to study and I'm so damn stressed. I keep taking mock tests and I just fail, fail, fail, again and again. If I don't get my license then my partner will keep having to drive me to work and he is so stressed about that, I don't know what will happen to us. There's so much pressure and I just really hate driving anyway. I don't want to have to do it. And I'm bad at it. My concentration levels suck and I can't even remember something simple like how to start the car even though I've been learning on and off for two years. It's just going to be hassle on top of hassle, extra money on a new car and car insurance that I can't afford, and I have to do it anyway.
Then my boss is always on my case at work about getting stuff done even though I AM getting it done. It's not my fault that something doesn't get finished if she keeps piling more and more stuff ahead of that task which she says is higher priority. When exactly do I get to the lower priority tasks if it is getting piled on me constantly?
I just want to get a publishing deal or an art grant so I can stay home and write and take pictures. If I got money like that everything would be fine. We wouldn't have these scheduling kinds of problems. I could do what I loved and make money from it too. I wouldn't need to drive anywhere or be driven most of the time, certainly not on a daily basis like now. I could get enough sleep again and I wouldn't be suffering from damaged elbows from my desk and headaches from the screen. But I never made enough money with photography before to support myself and there's no guarantee I could if I tried again, so I can't just quit my job. I just want to crawl up into a dark room right now and sleep for the next month so I don't have to deal with any of this.
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Sorry for the wall of text
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He was told to get more business in the door, but he's looking for a new job now because they are unreasonable targets. So fingers crossed he gets something new that won't be so stressful. He already got asked to come to two interviews so I'm hopeful.
Job hunting is a pain especially in this economy, but it's good that he's already got 2 interviews. Hopefully things will smooth out for you guys soon.
