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Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 02:46
by Demonskid
I gave them stem compressions and CO2 injections. o3o Life saving measures had failed.


My lungs probably look like someone who had smoked for a long time.. =3=
Mom use to be a carton a day smoker... x-x breathing all that in as a small child...

Family doctor says my "not getting a job" will have me dying young... I disagree.. the second hand smoke I was forced (still am thanks to neighbors) to endure is what's gonna kill me! D:<

Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 08:43
by Amura
Yeah, I'm glad no smokers in mine either. I've always hated the smell of cigarettes.


I don't get it, DK, why not getting a job would get anybody to die young? o-O

Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 13:20
by Demonskid
He see's people with out a job as people with no purpose in life. With out a purpose in life people die.

Basically: No job = lazy = lay around and wither away.

ummm... wtf is up with that logic?

People with disabilties have HEALTH ISSUES! Of course they aren't gonna live to 100! >:x

Mom had COPD due to her smoking like a chimney since she was 15. She smoked because of her stress and anxieties. Anyone notice whenever a smoker has a bad day, they SMOKE?! Yea... people with mental illness that get addicted to cigs... they're fking doomed to die from lung issues.

Me?
Lets see... My stress and Anxieties aggravate my IBS and my Gastroparisis... The Gastroparisis can become deadly. HMMM
I also have Asthma. That probably will develope into COPD in the future. (If it does, someone please shoot me... Please.. QnQ)
The carpal tunnel, syatic nerve, curvature of the spine, knee arthritis, and issues with my feet aren't and won't ever be life threatening.

So 3 PHYSICAL health issues that CAN eventually endanger my life.

Mental Health. Depression. Yes I have attempted Suicide before, and I do talk about it so I DON'T ever do it again... but man he made me wish I never tossed mom's pills out that day... I wanted to just end it then and there because of him...

Panic Attacks set off because of my many different anxiety issues can cause me to hyperventilate which can trigger my asthma issues...

Social Anxiety, Phone Phobia, and Agoraphobia, those all trigger my 2 stomach issues so in a sense they can be deadly... and they trigger panic attacks which triggers asthma...


Yea.. I'll probably die young.. but not because of being ON disability but because I HAVE these disabilities. I'll probably end up dying younger yet if I don't get on disability.. The depression and fear of becoming homeless makes me so depressed I start wishing I were dead.
Spoiler
I mean come on.. When I turned 16, I started job hunting. I was healthier then. My mental health wasn't as bad as it is now. Sure I did fight with depression, agoraphobia and anxieties back then, but they were no where near the levels that they are now. Burger King, Pizza Joes, Iannazone, BlockBuster Movies, RiteAid, Dairy Queen, Sparkle Market, and even that place I use to buy my Magic the Gathering, YuGiOh, and Pokemon cards from. No One WANTED TO HIRE ME! (Dollar General doesn't hire people under 18 so no trying for them until later)

We moved to be closer to the mall.
Hot Topic, FYE, Walden Books (closed eventually) BAM! (current bookstore), Food Court, GameStop, EB Games, Radio Shack, Wendy's, Circut City, Best Buy, Micheals (I couldn't breath in there so I ended up not applying) JCPenny, JoAnne Fabrics, Dollar General, KFC, Bob Evans, Edible Arrangements..

Oh.. They put a Panera Bread up near the mall and had one of those Open Interview things... I went to it... The people interviewing me kept looking over my shoulder at the skinny hot chick in line behind me. Guess who was working there when they opened. Yea.. I refuse to eat panera bread food... >:x

Those were the places I PHYSICALLY applied at. I went there, ask for applications, handed them in same hour... only to be looked and scoffed at.


Then internet applications became super popular when I was about 22...
If you don't answer certain questions a certain way, the companies never even GET your application. so there were years of that issue...

When Mom died I signed up for the job hunting website of "Indeed."
Most of them require a collage education. Alright... take that out.
Oh look.. you need a drivers license and the ability to drive. Nope...
2-4 years of experience. I was never able to get a job so yea... nope.

I found a job I thought I could do. I had experience doing it in high school thanks to their CBI program that had me working in the cafeteria. Got an interview... I can't move fast, I can't lift much, sorry you aren't a match for us.

Back to my search.. Oh look Office Jobs! All require me to talk to people on the phone.. I get physically ill just from being on hold for 10 minutes... I hyperventilate while on the phone with my lawyers... =3= the one lady that works with my lawyers told me that I really should get medication because of how bad I hyperventilated on the phone with her..

So yea... no.. just give me a computer job that's easy to do, away from people... doesn't exist...

Oh look! Data Entry jobs! All are for medical companies so you need medical school or nursing knowledge! D:< GRAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I spiraled into a rant... so I spoiler tagged it... didn't feel like deleting it this time)

I bought stuff to art with... but my attention span is small and I end up not in the mood to art... =3= I'll go back to it on occasion but not long enough to make money off of it.

Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 17:57
by Hotarla
well right now, i just want to stay healthy in a house with covid.....QnQ good luck to me.

Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 18:21
by Demonskid
You got this Hotarla!!!
-sends more healing wishes-


I am playing Horizons Zero Dawn..
Started playing it a few years ago when a friend gave me access to it.. never got far.. I'm almost where I was when I stopped.. (been screwing around in the game instead of doing what I'm suppose to be doing xD)

Also. I managed to snag the ever elusive PS5.. right before prices go up for it too. It comes tomorrow. Gonna have to stay out in the livingroom tomorrow to watch for UPS. I am NOT letting the neighbors have a CHANCE of stealing that thing. >:x

Its the one thing I set aside money for, and I finally got it. I been saving for this fker since before mom passed too.. =/


I has a hunger headache... but I also feel pukey.. =/ dunno why.. my stress levels aren't as high as they were at the start of the month... bleh.
Went to make a chicken patty.. I'm out of buns.. =A= uuugh

I cooked with my air fryer yesterday so that's in the process of soaking.. so can't make more chicken fries. I have chicken breast thawing out to have teriyaki chicken tomorrow. bleeeh foood... take out it is >:x

Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 19:01
by Hotarla
yeaah i hope my minor cough and nasally sounding voice means nothing...8u

Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 19:08
by Demonskid
when my friend ruru caught it, he had bad coughing that made him lose his voice.. and just felt like he had a bad flu... o3o like all fevery and weak. no appetite. I don't remember anything else other than he slept lots.


How's your mom doing?

Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 20:11
by Hotarla
yeah i feel tired to. but i dunno if its sickness tired or just tired tired. 8u

my mom is still the same.

Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 21:36
by Moi

You just didn't try to save the lives hard enough >8u

I was so used to smoking that I couldn't smell cigarettes ._.
When my mom went to prison, I lived without secondhand smoking for years.
Now I can smell cigarettes and I hate them >>

Yeah, I'd like to see the real life statistics of disabled people dying young because they don't have a job Bu

I'm praying for you and your family every night, Hotarla :3

Re: ♡ Kowai Desu ♡ (Everyone Is Welcome!)

Posted: Aug 26th, '22, 23:57
by Demonskid
Moi: they were destined to die.. the guy especially.. the girl i wish i coulda saved.

I wonder of the LN Rebuild World took inspiration from this game (or vice versa) >w<


When I was little i couldn't smell the smoke.. (i could taste it tho.. gross) but eventually i was able to smell it and i was choking on it... nothing changed... other than my asthma had formed. the taste...