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Yeah, but I love this one

Maybe he's trying and I don't see it, seems it's also the other way around...
I just don't want him to go

He's really a great guy, just insufferable in tiny little areas.

I know, it's going to be a hard decision. Just do what you feel is best for yourself.

So, my doc approved me to take 8 weeks (2 months) off work for a medical leave, so I can get my medication regulated and try to alleviate my stress and anxiety. I have not told work yet, and I am trying to decide if I will do this or not. My mom is giving me shit about it, saying I shouldn't be taking time off work, just go get counseling and learn how to deal with stress.

Perhaps she has forgotten that I was in multiple different forms of therapy and psychiatry for over half my life. I got much better over the years, but she doesn't think that is good enough ... now at 31 years old she accuses me of just wanting to sit at home and read my books. She also makes comments like "I didn't listen to anything my mom said when I was 17 either ..." uhh, what?? I'm fucking 31 years old. I'm trying to do what is best for my mental health.

I also think she is smoking cigarettes inside the house which I have told her is not okay. I smoke too, but only outside because I think smoking inside is disgusting, and if I open a daycare here and have animals as well it's not good for them! She denies it, even though I caught her once doing it through her kitchen window in the basement. She said she was being "lazy" and that was the only time ... I don't believe that cuz I smell smoke sometimes upstairs when I know I haven't been smoking or Jay hasn't either. She denies it and says I'm crazy. LoL. Ok mom.

Now she says she is physically ill because she is WORRIED about me taking a medical leave from work and that I won't get as much money on medical leave. Well guess what, my mental health is more important than losing out on a couple hundred extra bucks. Would you rather have me be fired or just get up and walk out one day because I can't take it anymore? I dunno what to do at this point.

Nooo, Nikki, don't listen to your mom, just do what's good for your mental health! She probably really is worried but I don't think she understands your situation at all. As you said, in the long run, your health is more important than a couple more dollars. I think you should definitely take that leave and take care of yourself first.

@Mem - Thank you! I made the decision and am taking the leave. I had a long talk about it with my mom and Jay they both ended up agreeing it's the right thing to do. I also found out I get benefits for medical leave from work which will be better money than just the regular government medical leave so I think that made my mom a bit happier about it. LoL. I'm also going to be taking advantage of some counseling through my work health program. My last day was today, and I am supposed to go back in March if everything goes well.

How are things going with you ??

I'm glad to hear they agreed and that you're taking this opportunity

Oh, I'm fine, just had a dream last night that Ash bought me a ring, but it was ugly and the stones were falling out and the glue was visible etc. And he was telling me something along the line of "I bought it, because I'm not as stupid to just leave you, but I'm not gonna overpay for some stupid ring". Which is totally not something he would say, but it's a dream so well. And I told him I'm happy he gave it to me, but I'd rather a prettier one, like this or that (and somehow we were suddenly in a store, lol and I was showing him ones I liked) and he said we can just exchange the if I want.
That's all. So I'm fine, just getting impatient XD My brain playing tricks on me and all. Midpoint of the month is coming soon and I can't wait to just ask him. He was looking at concerts and checked out a Valentine's Day concert of jazz music and I'm like... but you know we're kinda not okay, right? We might not be together by February 14th XD Of course I didn't tell him that, because that would make him feel like I'm pressuring him to hurry up and I didn't want to do that. It wouldn't do any good to my cause

Edit: now it occured to me that maybe he doesn't think about breaking up but more about moving out. Although I specifically told him to think about whether he wants to be with me or not.

Thanks

Oh wow, that is a pretty funny dream. I always have weird dreams about my fella, and he does things in the dreams he would not do in real life, too.

I hope he makes up his mind soon so you don't have to keep stressing about everything.

This morning he told me he remembers what he's supposed to decide about, so at least I know he didn't forget

I can't even remember how the conversation shifted to that

Man, I always stress about things, and this one is kinda important XD also me stressing about things is one of his problems with me so I'm like welp, not gonna stop so you better make up your mind

I understand, as I stress about every little thing myself. Ugh, it's not fun. Why do we do it to ourselves? I know we mostly can't help it, but ... LoL

Well, I'm glad he hasn't lost his short term memory - hopefully he has a solid answer for you soon about what his plans are.

In other news, I have my 13 year old nephew over tonight to sleep over and he is taller than me now, and that's kinda freaky ... LoL

Exactly, we can't really help it. Ash doesn't seem to get it. Oh well.

Oh, I understand. Not too long ago I saw my mom's neighbour's grandson that I remember playing with when he was like 1 or 2 yrs old and now he's like even taller than my bf I think, so that was a shock XD
Also I remember bf's lil sis as a kid and now she's so much taller than me and all grown up :')

Ah, the joys of growing up. LoL.

Let me know if there is any progression on the Ash front

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