When I was a little girl, I always thought I'd grow up, meet a man, fall in love, get married and live happily ever after.
Now that I'm an adult, I don't want anything to do with anyone. I don't want a boyfriend or girlfriend, I don't like being touched, I don't like going out, I just want to be left alone.
I also don't have the patience to deal with a relationship and I lose interest in things and don't want them anymore.
I turn 31 in October and I've never had my first kiss, a first date or even had sex.
Those things haven't interested me in the slightest and I don't think I'll ever find interest in them.
I've been told that I just need to experience it and I'll change my mind.
I don't need to experience being stabbed to know it hurts.
I don't really find real people attractive. I tend to find fictional characters more appealing, but still feel no sexual desire for anything.
But I have had crushes on other people.
But they were more like...a strong adoration that I'd quickly lose interest in.
I once confessed to this guy that I liked him and he turned me down and I was sad for a few minutes, but realized that I didn't really like him and I felt like I dodged a bullet.
I developed a crush on a friend I met on this website. I was so in love with her personality and I loved just talking to her and watching things with her.
Again, it was more of a strong adoration, but I didn't feel that way about any of my other friends.
Have you discovered your sexuality, or are you still learning?