Yeah, I told him he's not his mom or his step-dad, they are different people and so on... but I think his issues are too deeply rooted and he has to work through them with a specialist. I hope he will look for something soon, I don't want to force things on him, but it's a big issue for me so the sooner the better. I'm afraid I'll have to prod him about it tho...

I'm not really sure what to make of that talk with my sister. I'm not actually completely happy with how it went, it feels like she didn't mean the apology... but maybe I'm oversensitive and just don't trust her yet.

I feel I'm not quite okay with her yet. But as I said, we'll see how it goes. This is a very old conflict, not just the two of us, but it's a whole close family thing we've had. Shit was being said and done, but I still think it was mostly on her and her husband's part. And for a few most recent years they and my mom and granny have been in the pretending phase, which I completely refused to play. And that night I just got fed up aith all the pretending and said we should explain some things.

I don't think he'll start that counseling soon. He didn't even look for any yet and when I casually asked if he had, he immediately sounded annoyed. So yeah... If I'm not getting married in 2 years then I want to plan kids. Oddly enough he told me he wouldn't mind it if I accidentally got pregnant, even now. I don't mean I would make an accident on purpose (although that's what my mom and bff recommended xD), but it seems kids are closer than the wedding.

Definitely start your counselling, the sooner the better :) I also feel like writing is the best option for me, I trip over my words in person. But I did manage a counselor in person over a year ago, so maybe it's not as bad.

Wow, that's terribly nasty of them, I'm sorry you have to go through that, it's awful
But *confetti rain* for that counseling session! It's awesome that it went well. It would be great to continue that, imo :)
Also, love guided meditation, super relaxing.

I'm fine, I have been dealing with my period for the past two days and yesterday I visited my mom and taught her some English. And I talked with her about my book. It was fun. Then I watched an ending of a soccer match with bf.
Although I'm terribly behind on writing. Despite being very productive today (got up early, showered, did shopping with Ash, did laundry etc.), I'm not quite happy with myself. I'll probably start writing in half an hour or so, when I'm done kofking XD

That's great you got your money! *confetti rain*
It's frustrating that they have to assess your leave again.

We're Polish, so my mom speaks just that She used to speak some French and English a long time ago, but now she forgot everything. Now that she's trying to change her job, I offered to finally just teach her English because it's one of the most popular requirements nowadays. And she's such a procrastinator she can never push herself to start learning on her own, depsite all my attempts to encourage her. So now we just watch shows with Polish subtitles and translate songs :)

I'm super happy with my writing, I managed to finish the first draft of my prologue and just before the deadline I gave myself. And it wasn't completely last minute, just a tiny bit :D I'm also proud that I didn't just stop and admired my "work", but instead started working on outlining the next chapters more. Or over again, to be exact ;P

It was very productive! I think it's because I finally began writing down my goals and slicing them into smaller goals. For example I want to finish the first draft of my novel until the end of this year. But for January I wanted to just write the prologue, so I wrote that goal on a post-it and put it where I could see it every day so it would bug me and make me feel guilty about not doing things to achieve that goal :D It stares at me and I get to work XD I have two writing goals for February and I'm worried about my consistency and commitment. We'll see.

She really enjoys it, thank goodness She's like me, studying mindlessly, memorising vocabulary and taking tests just stresses her out. So instead I took the immersion technique and made her watch movies of her interest and I used the opportunity to show her some songs that have positive messages. She thinks too lowly of herself. So it's my subliminal message XD Plus we goof a lot during our meetings :)