Psychosis... when ritalin's effect backfires on me. I was supposed to take another med called strattera but since I was on a major project with a tight deadline, my psychiatrist prescribed fast acting ritalin for me to cope with the workload. Ritalin worked almost instantly and I had no problem sitting in class or doing my assignment but the withdrawal hit HARD. 15 minutes ago I was hanging out with my friends all excited and talking about what we'd do the next day but the minute I left them to board the bus, my brain started going crazy. I had these thoughts about my family, friends, everyone betraying and backstabbing me, it just went on and on. I tried pulling my hair and constantly whispering 'stop' to get my brain to shut down but it just wouldn't let go of these irrational thoughts. I was so helpless at that time it's like alien thoughts kept being injected into my brain and I couldn't even control it, also knowing that no one would be able to help even if they wanted to because it's all in my head. At one point I wanted to just bang my head and pass out but I was so preoccupied I couldn't even do that.
