KimiLavender wrote:Yeah, I think you do see a lot of the posts where she's complaining But I know I at least have also seen ones where she talks about the nice thing's with Ash. I think as humans we're just more likely to talk a lot when we're unhappy about something?

Yeah, that makes sense. I do find it easier to talk about silly things my boyfriend does rather than nice things because I feel like I'm bragging too much... plus, silly things are so fun to talk about. Like the time we went camping and I went to bed earlier while he got drunk and when he finally came to bed he started groping my face. I woke up and was like, wtf are you doing?!? and he told me he was looking for my hand. I'm like, why would my hand be on my face?!? and he's like, ...
... good point. And I considered not giving him my hand because I was cranky but I relented and we fell asleep holding hands.

memoriam wrote:Yeah, I do complain a lot... It's Polish DNA enhancing the natural human thing, we do talk more about what's wrong than about what's good and I really wouldn't be my Polish self if I did not complain my ass off *casually blames it on her nationality instead of her inner negativity* #smooth

Ah, that makes sense. I do also have a tendency to remember negative things more than positive things.
It's something I really need to work on.

@Zia: No, I don't really bring up the topic of my sister when talking with family. They do and it ruins my mood every time -.- Unless I do bring her up, but without mentioning her name or anything, just a hint, and then only Ash gets me. And my mom is clueless so she's like "but what? who? tell me? who are you talking about? 8u" and so I say "nah, just a friend, nvm". Btw, my sister used to be my friend, so it's only half a lie XD So even if I (kinda) bring her up and (of course) am spitefull, my family doesn't get it anyways

Ah, I see. That makes sense. Yeah. I understand that it ruins your mood but maybe just to keep the peace you might want to tell them what they want to hear, like how you're looking forward to seeing your sister and how nice it is her life is going well, and then casually change topic. You don't have to follow through with promises to see your sister, of course. It just sounds like it causes everyone undue stress. Sorry I'm being so nosy.

Ah, see, this time I misunderstood XD
I wouldn't go as far as saying I have a career, I've only worked at that one company so far, plus I'm young so it's more like, I should start over to get something I'd actually like to do. Like, I have this job offer for writing scenarios and characters and everything for games, and it sounds like an awesome opportunity, but I'm so scared to even apply I am actually currently procrastinating sending it, like right at this moment, just being here on kofk instead of writing a cover letter or something x.x
I'm looking also for something similar that I used to do, so you know, I'm just trying to find something that wouldn't sound like a killer to me XD #ImaScaredBunny

Ugh, that sounds so fun. You should totes do it! Heck, give me the contact and I'll do it! But makes sense you would want to explore your options a bit. I feel like I need to commit more because a lot of jobs around here requires a lot of qualifications and experience and it feels like a waste to get qualifications just to find that I'm not suited for it, you know?

About Ash... well, yeah, you know, he means well Sometimes I overreact or overinterpret (like always, duh) the things he says, but once I confront him I can rest assured he didn't mean it as badly as I took it. So at the end of the day, he's the one to encourage me about standing my ground with my sister thing, or pushing me out to therapy (sucks that he's unpushable, hypocrite ) or encourage me to do stuff I enjoy, like writing, drawing (he even bought me the graphic tablet that I'm so afraid of QwQ). He really wants the best for me, but sometimes (or should I say often) he states it a bit wrong, or I take it wrong and then I get guilty or angry, and it's a never ending circle But he's a darling, heart of gold, I swear ;A;

Ah, that does make sense. Like how my boyfriend tells me that I smell nice and if I ask him what I smell like he comes up with the most ridiculous unflattering things.
Like smoke. Or basement. Or cleaning solution. Like, how is that a complement and why do you find those scents pleasant?

Yeah, I don't open doors for anyone.


I hope your mom did come by and that you had some good time nonetheless. We Koreans call menopause the second puberty because your hormones go haywire like it did when you were going through puberty and you get super moody and cranky like you did back then.

Hi!

Long time no seeeeee!

I pretty much always have a baby on me now. My lot in life is baby on lap at all times.

Started playing Love Nikki, obsessed, constantly RIP my stamina :(

How are you guys? I see walls of text and I'm not even going to try to read them (I lie, I might, if the boss baby will let me)

Oh, the baby? The Angel baby? She's doing amazing, she'll be four months old on the 21st you guys. FOUR MONTHS???

Missed you all but needed time to adjust <3

Yeah, no harm trying! *bribes mem with candy*

I saw that you showed up on my friends list Lily!

Oooooh LN fanart contest! Raine, are you going to have time to join?

Oh well You're right though, that it is a really low amount :/

Do you guys belong to an association? I joined one and yay but we should make one?? But it's probably a pita? I dunno, would be fun to chat there.

I need more friends on the game cause stamina but I've added whoever shows up on refresh and no one add me back. WHY NO STRANGER LOVE?? Lol <3

@Zia: You know, I've been telling people what they want to hear all my life, because that's the mentality of my family (and exams, lol). So after a while of just caring about everybody else's feelings and opinions but my own, it began to take its toll on my mental and physical health. And I grew tired of just telling people what they want to hear. I just try not to react if they mention her, I ignore the topic of my sister even if it comes up. That's the best I can do for myself. They say what they want, I don't have to listen or keep talking about it, I can change the subject in the right moment. If I start telling lies like "oh it's so great that she's done somehitng!" they will think things are back to normal, that I've "forgiven" her and everything's fine, and that would mean I wouldn't stay true to my own feelings. And that's something I'm trying to learn on therapy now, that it's okay to tend to my own needs and feelings before I reach out to anybody else's. It's a healthy selfishness that everyone should learn, you can't please everyone and it's best for you to care for yourself first.

I did apply at last, but now I'm thinking I should've written a cover letter for that, even though they didn't require it. But still, it sounded super cool and maybe if I wrote something more than just what they wanted, that would show something to the potential employer. That I care or am passionate or stuff like that. But now I think I messed up.
I understand, it would be frustrating about loosing your time and energy and probably money to get qualified in something you don't enjoy or are good at.

Lol, that is a crazy compliment, maybe don't ask next time, just take it XD

Looool, yep, that's my reaction XD

She came, she was acting normally, but told me I'm ver mean and that she should eb telling me this everyday... Like why? You yelled at me ;>_> And thanks, that's something every child wants to hear from their mother... And it's not like she doesn't tell me this pretty frequently already. But I'm just an honest person and she is oversensitive. I'd have to stop talking when sh's around, because literally something random can set her off. Like stuff that wasn't even meant to be or even sound mean.

@Lily: Yay, you're alive! *confetti rain* The baby didn't eat you XD (babies eat their mothers, just so you know, scientific fact, lol)
So glad she's doing well! Funny thing, I met up with my bff yesterday and mentioned you actually (we were talking pregnancy and kids stuff), I couldn't tell if Eli came to the world 3 or so months ago, but obviously I was close Hope you're feeling alright

@Raine: She is... QnQ

Sure, it doesn't hurt to apply, as long as I don't have to come up with a cover letter. If I do, and don't really care about the offer, 1) the cover letter takes forever to write it and comes out crappy, 2) if I don't get called I will feel like writing it was a total waste of time and effort...

Wow, no wonder you got traumatised with the omens of "visitors". Make perfect sense now. *hugs*

Don't you have some proper heating system? (asked the one who turns the heating on minimum all day only because her bf will complain that it's too hot there, but she's freezing all day for that #logic I gotta stop doing that)

Awww, mems <3. thanks for thinking.about us. Yeah, she's doing really good. Everyone tells me how alert and strong she is. I'm a proud momma :) Sorry to see you're having some strife, wish I could wish it away for You!

I finally made it to princess level so I can farm this weekend, yayyy! I should probably not play and stock up my ripstamina? YEAH RIGHT LALW.