I know what you mean, that's what sucks about this country at the moment. it costs more to eat DECENT food. -___-
perfectly understandable! it took me years to feel comfortable going out again, when I used to abhor just going to the movie theatre. I know you're kinda out there, but is there maybe a place you could try go to a few times a week? or are most places quite a drive?

ugh, that sounds so unbearable and yuck >__< why is your phone disabled?
oh that's good! and I was the same way, I hated being in pitch black silence XD might be worth getting a small lamp or even a night light. it'd be reeeally awesome if you could get one of those fancy machines that make nature sounds. those are fuckin expensive tho, maybe a cheap stereo and some nature CDs would be more likely. XD

well I know that, but usually someone drives you to get somewhere right? oAo or do you walk? <<

haha xD I don't like that either, I always trip or bump into something

sorry i've not been posting much, i had a really rough week >.<

mm.. just nothing went well. XD incoming wall of text.

Had to walk about 4 miles to get to an appointment. It was muggy and windy. My feet hurt like hell and my shoes got all muddy. >~> Because for some reason there are barely any sidewalks around here and I had to walk on the side of the road 95% of the way. Thankfully my mom left work early so I didn't have to walk back, at least... but she was feeling really sick so I let her use my acupuncture appointment.

Had to wake up pretty early to go to a work-related class the next morning, which went fine for the most part. Was still overtired from yesterday, so I went home and just.. slept. Like a rock. Until I had to get back up to go back to work. I thought I started at 4:30 pm, so I got to the bus stop at around 3:30ish and commenced the usual I-wonder-how-late-the-bus-will-be-today waiting routine. A little bit past 4, I got a call from work asking where I was. Apparently my shift started at 4, and well yeah now it's past 4. This got counted as a no-call no-show, which is really bad.. I finally got to work around 4:22, and basically collapsed at my desk in tears because I was really fucking tired and I felt horrible for getting a no-call no-show, especially on such a busy day when they really needed me in on time. My co-workers were really helpful though, Irene gave me hugs, and Kaile said she would take my shift on the phones and I could do CRM. Which was good because I forced myself to start before I had completely settled down (there were like 3 calls in the queue and I couldn't just sit there doing nothing forever) and was still sniffling/trying not to cry more lol.

THURSDAY I SLEPT A LOT. It was good. Then Friday I had to meet with my boss, because of the no-call no-show. It was basically a formality but I still felt pretty shitty about it. Apparently I actually have two, because I got another with a similar situation a week or two before. (Thought I was in at 9 am for CRM, because thats ALWAYS when AM CRM shifts start, but for some reason I was scheduled at 8:45. I got there just after 8:45, but didn't clock in until 8:55 because, again, I thought it was 9 LOL. Only after I did so did my shift lead inform me I was supposed to be in earlier. I thought this just got counted as a late, but turned out it was a no call no show. @__@) So now I'm on a Performance Improvement Plan, and have to meet with her weekly. If I get 3 more strikes or another no call no show I could lose my job. So I guess I'll go back to arriving an hour + earlier than my shift again because the bus is so fucking unreliable. D8

It's my own fault for not paying the best attention to my schedule so I still feel shitty and dumb about it. Also I was just so damn tired. =__=;; I really wish I had my license, and that we had another car so I wouldn't have to worry about the stupid bus and spend 45+ min in anxiety while waiting for it. I might as well just start walking the whole way (almost an hour's walk), but I don't want to get to work all sweaty and gross.. orz

Today to avoid the 4 mile walk I took a cab, and that was almost $40. Ow.

Somehow I managed to draw yesterday though YAY????

Omfg that's terrible.. XD;;;;;

Mwergh. I'm just really nervous about possibly being late again haha, I guess I have to err on the side of paranoia and be sure to text/call-in if I think I'm going to be a second late.
But thank you. <333

He changed a lot!! XD http://sta.sh/0akltru3qh4