I haven't been in the mood all year so its nice to finally be back in that mood.


Was sick all day so no anime today -3-
3 dr appointments this week too so I dunno if I'll be watching much. >A<

no? besides, i can't just watch anime with headphones, or without them. if the phone rings, what do i do? if someone ELSE is on the phone, and i have anime on, what then? xD;; so, yeah, no anime. no anything except some music.

=/ isn't the point of a break is that you don't work? It's your 15-30 minutes of you time.. you aren't suppose to answer phones (or do any work) during a break =/



I laid down hours ago to go to sleep... =3= my stomach be flip flopping keeping me awake. I gotta be up in 3 hours or less at this point to get ready for a dr appointment...

On top of that, Sebas has decided to be a jerk to zeke so I just had to chase him all around the apartment with the squirt bottle. >:x

Whatever breaks i use, i use it to eat my lunch or check up on my mom who’s home alone and has high blood pressure. I’d rather do that than watch anime. Besides, watching anime is supposed to be relaxing, i can’t relax like that at work.

o3o k



So.. found out today that my family doctor that only see's me 2 times a year if that, is in the group of "Your too young to be disabled, stop being lazy"

Pretty much told me to lie about my issues so I could get a job...
Yea.. lie, get a job doing something I can't handle.. end up injured or dead because of it..
I'd rather tell the truth, and have someone hire me for a job they know I can do. >:x I haven't given that up yet.. I'm not gonna lie and get myself hurt.

FK.. a few of my issues started BECAUSE of work. D:<

I worked for the dog pound for a few months.. Wanna know what happened there? I developed tendon and ankle issues and my IBS started acting up again.. didn't have IBS issues since High School at that point (and it wasn't actually diagnosed yet because "Stop being lazy and go to school/work")

Moved to the family mission to work. Social Anxiety got worse, depression got worse, my back started having problems to where I needed to start seeing a chiropractor because of how many times I'd put my back out the days I had to work there.

I think my Agoraphobia started when I was in middle school.. bullies couldn't get to me if I stayed home. It got worse over the years.. especially after working at the mission...

Then there's my knee issue... that started from standing too much while taking care of mom those last 2 weeks... had me standing constantly, barely got to sit let alone sleep.. >:x

If I get too stressed out, not only do I have to worry about my IBS, but also the gastroparisis... The stress of seeing this guy that ignores me half the time, and I have an appointment to just meet with my plausible new dentist tomorrow... on top of trying to find a lawyer for my SSI battle.... I was sick all day yesterday and still nauseous all night last night.. only got 30 minutes of sleep...


My family doctor bitching about how I'm too young to be disabled, and people who are on disability die young because they're lazy... I didn't even get a chance to ask him about that allergic reaction that I get some times when I touch certain things... (like that weird dirt that my new aloe were in)
He knows about it.. and ignored me last time over it...

Good thing SSI couldn't get in touch with him for his opinion on if I should be on SSI or not. >:x FK him...

I see. 8u

I’m shredding paper again today. XD;; gotta get rid of old stuff to make way for….newer stuff. 8u

I'm ... curled up on my bed trying my hardest not to cry... and not to panic as I meet a dentist tomorrow to see if we get along well...

Good luck DK!
I hope he is nice!

I haven’t been to the dentist in yeaaaars…8u